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2005-11-02T19:50:00.000-08:00

i got new blog !

i got new blog !

i got new blog !

i got new blog !

watchmemove@blogspot.com!!!

2005-09-11T22:21:00.000-07:00

In the midst of doing my Gothic essay, of like 1500 words? i came to realize that I am too too tooo worn-out to go on with writing this monotonous essay… I am still stuck at 350 words lah.. can u believe it… I still have so much to do! Arghx…. Help help help….

But nvm… has been long since I felt like this “I wanna blog!”

Ydae in church, we celebr8ted tcher’s day/ leaders day…. Almost Obviously, it was for our much-loved leaders of UthNity…. It was amusing and enjoyable thru’out the whole program… first we have a short skit… by iwan, Fiona, huimin, junping n clement… den dance by me, siewlin n shiyin…. Den we have tis super long powerpoint thing prepared by wan xuan, iwan n huimin… den den den… prize presentation for all our 4 leaders…. Kris, Cindy, Zhi Wei, Abigail .. n I gt reminded by other 2 leaders, Vivien and Alex, whom left us earlier tis year…. Mmmm…. It was so so so fun can!!! I believe all our leaders n friends enjoyed it…. Heex….

Moreover, we really squeezed out a lot of time for this performance.. I remembered how mi, siewlin n shiyin tried to compromised w each other’s busy schedule just to meet up practice the dance together… n how much we wanted to perfect it like how shy kanchiong-ly meet up with mi n coming over to my house to practice… siewlin msn-ing to confirm the steps n stuffs… I cant believe it! We are all so ON for it k….. n yah.. its all over… n guess wad… its all back to studies…. Man!

Just a little thought that approached me, I really hope to stay like this forever… this kind of feeling… this kind of attitude… this kind of respect… this kind of Love…

2005-09-06T23:29:00.000-07:00

so long dint blogged already...

busy being fed with so much ego-food by this ego-feeder like almost 2 weeks ago...

i think i have got so much to say..... but i dun care.... dun really have the mood to...

thanks to him lah hhuh! remind mi of all my sad stuffs....

all these points down to..... STUDIeS!!!

ArGhx! i just like realised how much work i have this short short september hol arx!

LIt Essay corrections
Lit Readings (thick thick readings)
Lit {Gothic} Organization of conventions in table form...
Lit {Top Girls} 2 eSSay! 1 grp 1 individual
Lit Gothic Film Essay
Econs Promo PaperS! (it's a lot mind you) both MCQs and Essay Schematic Plan!
Econs ESSAY!
Geo Essay Test Preparation
Geo Readings [Hydrology]
Geo Readings [Tourism]
Geo Past year PAperS... DRQ + Essay!

good..... can u smell it... like now?

2005-09-01T17:59:00.000-07:00

wad a day....

i just reached home from PW meeting at Vip's hse not v long ago.... i was super demoralised... super sad.. super sianx... !!! we were happily doing our Written Report Draft since 10+ this morning... n at around 4+ zoOm.. itts all gone... bcos we pressed the wrong thing n replaced the file with another.. goodness... the 3 of us... were totally helpless..... n we totally have no mood to carry on...

at the moment.. juz feel like giving up... i kip prayyin hard.. tt by some miracle or sumtink, the file may b reccovered.. but.... mmmm..... nvm.... meeting up again 2ml.... another long long day...

i have not finished so much home work... DRQs, Lit Review, study for test... Readings, GP outline.....

tired.....

n i feeel so drift away from so many things....

i juz want to dance my life away...

if itwould be so eaasy ....

2005-08-22T20:35:00.000-07:00

wahx....

i nv felt so energy-less before...

i think i m drained out...

totally...

nv did Project Work till like to tired b4...

aft lessons chiong project.....

tot can rest on the bus...

saw tis not-close-at-all fren....

n she starts blabbering to me abt her sch life, class life, her likes n dislikes...

i mean.. it's so none-of-my-business lah...

ok.. a bit evil... but i dun like to just waste my little bit of energy to smile tt feeble smile n to entertain her by nodding my small head...

ok.... nvm....

good news: tt at least is able to cheer mi up tt bit

my econs teacher praised me.. for making effort in my recent econs test... yea.... very happy!! i studied like mad for tt.. woo hoo! paid off.... muacks....

2005-08-20T15:05:00.000-07:00

mmm.... talked 2 *shy on the phone..... since we last met last sun...
dun intend to call her initially.. just that she tempted me with such stuffs .. dat excites me so much... ok.. juz cant wait to call her asap ... n talked 2 her....
whao... such a long talk...... but yet... on my mind was only wad she said for the 1st few minutes....

i dunno if she can feel the tinge of sadness tt falls upon me tt moment... undescribe-able.... not really sadness... not reallly disappointment... not really upset... haiya.. whatever... just simply.... down.... ok.. eveb if the ans is either a 'yes' or a 'no'... i would not probably do anything abt it... but.. somehow u just yearn for this +empty 'yes'+

perhaps... its really not wad i think it would be... for them two... its a 'year' thingy.. but for me... juz a 'day' thingy..... i dunno.... feel quite.... whatever lah....

perhaps the protagonist dun even understand how 'big' tis issue actually is... bcos he/she basically dun give a heck.. or dun even realises the existence of such circumstances....
i am confused..... or mayb it is even better... to noe everiting alone.. so as to prevent undesired situations fom happening...

ok lah.. convinced me that its all God's plan k? yah.... mayb all that has happpened is the best that cld happen afterall... as in.. good for u, good for me... good for everybody lor.... yah.. maybe... shld be... yes... it MUST BE...

u ppl may nt understand this entry....at all... mayb only shy understands... mayb sum part she doesnt even understand.... oh yah... i guess no one even needs to understand... mmmm....

dun bother asking me.... cos i wun even bother saying.... i shld'nt even have blogged abt it... but.... ironically, i juz find myself typing down all these right now... u noe the computer wldnt understand u... but well, technology just have this weird way that eventually attracts us to them.... wen u r full or emotions, emotion-less... guess wad.... it seeems that the Computer knows it all...

goin for a swim... pls dun rain anymore

2005-08-14T21:42:00.000-07:00

u noe.. i juz feel new eveery sabath arises.... God always does something new... God always gives n provides a different n another 'batch' of new strength... n new set of confidence... a fresher start.... a affirmation that He's there... always.... if i seek...

it's so wonderful... and it's an honor to marvel at God's wonderful works on someone's else...

God.. i want them to.... can I?

yahx... i tell myself.. this time i cant disappoint Him again... i tell u... now i m once again refreshed n renewed by Him...

mmm... i m waiting n expecting something great... =p

gElylAnG dAyx...

2005-08-13T13:02:00.000-07:00

mEt up with *dajiN *chEnloOn *shY ydAe... n guess up.. we went to GEYLANG !!!haha... ok .... it was super fun ....

it was actually chEn lOoN's bdae..... oN 10th... sO wE decided to go out n eat .. yuPx.. the 4 of us....

i seriously enjoyed myself a lot a lot... as in... hanging out in 4s... crapping n sharing bout what's going on in our lives recently.. while the 2 of they blabbers about their DB life..... n cracking stupid jokes tryin very hard to fool ppl like mi... hahahax.... it was really so enjoyable.. from 8+ eat till 10+... like Beef hoR fUn!..... sOyA bEancuRd yoU tiAo... aBit of diM suM... sEsAmE pasr... pEanUt pAstE n DURIANS!!!

supEr funny lahx.. like some auntie uncle lidat....

u noe... when the four of us actually hang out lidat... i was telling shy.. tt it's really very 'adult' lahx... like how Dj n Cl 'take care' of us... ensuring we r 'safe' at all times.. hahaha.... n of cos... the companionship of each other... well.... it's a once-in-a-while- experience thing....

n of cos.... in the midst of the business of our individual lives, meeting up once in a long while is actually quite happening... u talk as much as u would like to... n tellin each other stuffs tt they wouldnt know.... n things like tt.... mmmm....

n yah.... wun noe when will be the next time de 4 of us will meet up like this... but definitely, i believe if there's another chance.. we'll definitely treasure tis precious time..

ok!!! what else can i say.... but really thank God for such wonderful frens.. though we may not see each other often.. but the rare sms sent n the hi's n bye's on msn.... wld deeply revealed of how much we care n love each other... yes.. it's all in the heart.. thank you frens... =p *MUACKZ*

2005-08-08T17:44:00.000-07:00

haha.. i m quite happy today... =p

had national day celebration... n yes! we performed.. can say it was an excellent one... as in, it has no mistake made, n best of all, i guess each n every1 of us enjoyed ourselves totally...

having heard all encouragements n good + nice comments, was really so encouraged.... n it really made the day lah!!!

i guai until go for remedial lessons despite it was a celebration day can... haha.. though it was a non-compulsory thingy....

hmmm.. excellent day.. n of cos... thank God... who else but Him have the ability to make this day great n fun... who else but Him have the ability to provide me with frens ard to make today a day rejoice-able... who else but Him wld have the ability to give frens to encourage me this day... who else but Him would give a heck abt a wretch like me on this Earth.. oh.. who else but Him...

ALL DAY

2005-08-08T17:30:00.000-07:00

i m in a super good mood now....

ALL DAY-Hillsongs

I DONT CARE WHAT THEY SAY ABOUT ME
ITS ALRIGHT, ALRIGHT
I DONT CARE WHAT THEY THINK ABOUT ME
THEY'LL GET IT ONE DAY

I LOVE YOU, I'LL FOLLOW YOU
YOU ARE MY LIFE
I WILL READ MY BIBLE AND PRAY
I WILL FOLLOW YOU ALL DAY

I DONT CARE WHAT IT COSTS ANYMORE
COS YOU GAVE IT ALL AND I'M FOLLOWING YOU
I DONT CARE WHAT IT TAKES ANYMORE
NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS I'M GOING YOU WAY

I LOVE YOU, I'LL FOLLOW YOU
YOU ARE MY LIFE
I WILL READ MY BIBLE AND PRAY
I WILL FOLLOW YOU ALL DAY

ALL DAY, ALL DAY NOW, ALL DAY

ANYONE AROUND CAN SEE
JUST HOW GOOD YOU'VE BEEN TO ME
FOR ALL MY FRIENDS WHO DONT KNOW YOU
I PRAY THAT YOU WOULD SAVE THEM TOO

2005-08-06T14:47:00.000-07:00

I look around for hope to find
There's so much but none i like
Isnt this how the world is like
That none will be satisfied with their life

I inquire only for this peace
That i can get only from Thee
They ask for more, for good, and for the best
And besides that, they have all the rest

Friends and family know it all
With their words i m not old
Fresh and new day awaits me
Still and strong like the tree, i will be

Enough stay in Timbaktu
Time for me to start anew
"I have never fail nor forsake u"
God will help me, mind you

2005-08-05T21:57:00.000-07:00

i wonder if this will become a usual routine....

waking up at 3am almost all mornings
study-school-eat-study again-n a bit of dance-study again
strength-less n worn-out
expecting excellent results....

but guess what.... u flunk almost all of them

if this is going to b my routine for all whole of 2 yrs.. i rather not continue it. but the problem is, i dun even noe the answer...
ppl, stop telling me to work hard... i just feel uncomfortable hearing that for the umpteenth time.... how to work hard? aint i working hard now? whats the problem?

sometimes u really get so disappointed that u get angry with everyone around u, u get angry with urself, u get ange with the world, u get angry with ur life...

checked my results juz now in class... n my CT wants to see my parents.. i m freakin worried... i duno what they will say n stuffs... i think i will cry again.. went to the toilet ALONE... n juz sobbed.... it's terrible... to cry alone n having no1 by ur side.... i read shy's n kris's sms.... my tears juz flowed....

in pehaps similar situation as some of u, i searched thru my phonebook n hope 2 talked 2 some1... sadly, none i've found... i onnly managed to sms shy n kris n then, i dint reply their sms... duno how to ....

will there be a single person tt will truly understands me? noe how worried i am.... the sadness is not only superficial but its truly deep... like how roots have penetrated into the ground? that as wind blows n rain drops, it willl still be so inside... difficult to remove...

will there be one tt will c me thru as i try to hide my emotions? the cheery, pleasing, cheeky me, is actually distressed, troubled, sorrowful, hurt n painful?

no use letting other knows what u r feeling, how much effort put in... no use convincing others to believe in you....

when u actually are losing faith in urself, when u actually feel so hopeless, when u actually feels like giving up...

Do you knnow how i feel?

2005-08-02T17:45:00.000-07:00

i dun feel good..

gt scolded by GP teacher 2dae...

she gave us a readiin test... to test us if we read the reading ... den super jia lat... she was damn pissed cos of cos no 1 does well...... sae we stupid.. sae we brainless... canot tahan her... dunno y have such a teacher like her... screwed...

best thing, halfway doing my work, she called mi n ask mi 2 go out.. den i went.. n she said my language not good... two scientist(s) i write scientist.... it was juz a minor mistake lah.. she nid 2 lidat embarass mi infront the whole class? she was saying.. in J1 alr, the english still like that... like what cannot be helped n things lidat... n mind you... she wasnt like say until very soft lah.. its basically shouting n everi1 can hear lahx...

its like.. if she meant to let everi1 noe, den why the hell she ask mi walk to the front, n after she finish embarrassin me, asked mi to return to my seat? mite as well scold mi from my seat right? make mi walk... wad the hell... she damn ridiculous can say.... i rmb Mr Yeo once mentioned that we have to have good relationship with teachers... but how to have with tt freaking old lady... sick...

besides being angry.... besides being disappointed.. i was super discouraged as welll lah.. well... u noe lahx... u will have all the thoughts, negative i mean.. yahx.... but my fren told mi 2 juz ignore her..... work hard let her c... ok... i think i will try .... i think....

haiya... den i take 190... wanted to drop at a certain bus stop den change bus home.. but dunno wad i thinking... juz stare in the blank space ... i realised soon after tt i was on the expressway towards orchard... how manly can i get.....

mmm.... i always look forward to dance.. yes! 2ml..... rehearsals..... national day celabration is juz 6 days away... mine.. . so excited..... mmmm...... practiced so hard for my 1st ever performance for PJC ppl... wooo hoo... duno wad it will b like... kan chiong dead....

2005-07-30T21:50:00.000-07:00

i changed my blog skin againx.. cos i find there's sumtink wrong wif my previous 1.... mmmm... but dunno which 1 nicer.. but nvm lahx... juz changed!

went to botanic garden... church organise an event for autism kids n their family.. mmm... went to help out... as in attached to each family n somehow helped them.... it was a great experience... n of cos.. had fun!

after tt went to study.... i really need to mug hard ler!!!

nth much to blog.... juz want to share tis short para from a book tt i have read... nice stuffs.....

there u go...

I regained my couch, but never thought of sleep. Till morning dawned I was tossed on a buoyant but unquiet sea, where billows of trouble rolled under surges of joy. I thought of sometimes I saw beyond its wild waters a shore, sweet as the hills of Beulah; and now and then a freshening gale wakened by hope, bore my sprirt triumphantly towards the bourne: but i could not reach it, even in fancy, - a counteracting breeze blew off land and continually drove me back. Sense would resists delirium: judgement would warn passion. Too feverish to rest, I rose as soon as day dawned.
- Jane Eyre chapter 15-

2005-07-28T19:13:00.000-07:00

i am so disappointed... so upset... so tired and so sorry....

had a super bad day.... its really THAT BAD kx...

hAix.... had test (geo) in the morning.. n sumtink really bad happened.... dun wanna add in the details... was really damn sad lah... n thru'out the day it really spoiled the mood of the whole cls man!

but thank God... it was solved... mm...n i seriously hope it's ok in the end... please....

n.. the worse to come...

my lit teacher actuallly showed us our results that are accumulated for the past few tests together.. it will be taken into acccount for our promos.. LIT... all in all... i got like 27% lah... i m like wad the hell.. though somehow expected it... but still... u wldnt noe how to face it nevertheless... haix...

den nvm... the names are highlighted in RED!!! those who did exeptionally un-well.... n most of all.. i have the lowest score in my class....

i dunno.. can feel droplets of tears forming in my eyes soon after.... i dun want to give up.. but it seems that the situation seems to b encouragin me to do so..... b4 u talk to me, console me, or juz comfort.. juz lemme talk... or vent u cls say....

i felt tt i m not reaping what i have sow..... i did all my Lit work lah.. i rread all my readings lah! some of my clsmate dint even do dem lor.... n did extra revision when i gt the time for LIT lahx.. n what i get????? is still these results..... i m so pissed wif myself.... i noe i aint suppose to feel tis way.. but i juz feel stupid u c.... never wld i imagine i wld get such results.. loweest in cls leh!!! i've never been there b4 lor.... i dunno..... dunno wad can i do... yah... i m supposed to look for teachers n ask dem wads my prob..... i dunno.. will it help???

i dun wan these tears to drop.... but they juz kip moving down my face... m i doing enuf?

talked to fren... n she said "pray to God"

i noe.... i did tt.... n i noe His plan is perfect n a lot a lot more principles i cld find to have more faith... but talk is cheap.... sumtimes u juz cldnt find it real to ur life until u constantly feels His love.... His presence... how ON FIRE u felt at one moment.. den at the next moment.. guess wad? u r back to the pessists u....

how can i not feel this way? its not wad i wan u noe? i kip telling myself positive things.... but somehow it jus fails when tis bcum a cliche n u feel that u no longer believe as much as u did before...

i jusst want to cry n shout out loud.... HELP ME MY LORD

2005-07-23T22:58:00.000-07:00

tis is probably the 2nd i've typed.. n erase again...

duno wad to write... so much to say yet cant pen it down....

oh yah. ..has been exactly 1 week... wad have i been doing wif my life for the past wk???

mmmm... basicaaly we have dance like amost everi single day? haha..... like until 9+ den reach hm? i dun even have the time to tok 2 my beloved shiyin lahx... let alone have 'recreationall' time... heez.... i kind of like n dun like tis idea... like. is of cos all the good times spent wif my beloved dancers lah..imagine the few of us juz stayed back n choreograph the whole freakin dance on our own.. practicing till like so late everiday... our usual routine is havin chips n bitchin ard in the canteen n in the dance room.. laugh out head off n dance our way off...

n of cos.. de dun-like-part.. is the aftermath when u get freakin tired... n u basically CANNOT do anything... impt tings like, homework, slp, eat, talk??? yahx.... n tt is super retarded lah... n i dun tink my family understands lah.... they think i m having a lot of fun outside... (actualy i do, but its kinda a no-choice ting wad) .... den wen i get back home... juz hear nagging n stuffs... right..... so pleasant to the ears... so NICE to hear wen u r alr so tired n juz needed some rest or some encouragement... mmm.. i dun get tt?

well... i definitely have to trust God in tis kinda stuffs... like i always do trust.. n like He always helps.... i rmbed asking kris how to rely on God's strength instead of my own's.... u noe, its easy to say, but hard to do? n she said, : " to know wad u cannot do n BELIEVE that HE can do it" n then, i juz proclaimed everitink!!! n to really have the notion to BELIEVE really helps....

wad else can i say.... but THANK GOD!!!

aNothEr wEeK

2005-07-16T19:37:00.000-07:00

mmM..... anOther wK has almost past.. =p how fast isn't it... n i ccant wait for today!!! cant wait for weekend!!! woots!

past week has been practicing!!! buSY pracctising for 2dae's grand event... the MOE held a Racial Harmony Day thing in PJC today... a lot of other schs come to our sch.... den we only like get the notice of putting up a performance on monday lah!!! in such a short time... we came up wif steps, practice everitink.. n there..... our Hip Hop Dance thIngy!!! hehEx....

very good.. though the process is quite undersirable... imagine we have dance almost everi single freaking day ... reach hm 8+ ler... n wad... have to finish up those homework dat nv cease to pile up everi single day? wad's more..... its not as if the school will give u a break... tests tests tests n tests like so the often lah.... n the best thing is.. most of the time u dun actually have the energy to study or do ani work bcos u r literally VERY TIRED! so wad u actually end up doing is slping early and waking up early as well... just to do these work!

but anyway... come 2 think of it.. it was quite fun lah.... as in.. the times that we dancers spend together. how we encouraged one another.... talking abt guys.... n bitching ard... haha... though hard, but enjoyable yah....

we were all so excited... 2dae... we spent most of our time TAKING PHOTOS!!! so funny.. we make all kinds of face.. poses all kinds of poses.... make a nuisance of ourselves.. n irritate the hell out of the poor 'photographers'

finally.. IT WAS THE DANCE! haha.... well.. wad cld i say!!! it was utterly superb.... really enjoyed myeslf.... made no mistake like in the past i do! smiled like i nv do to the audiences.... woo hoo....~ an achievement.. very happi... lol...

nw.. back to a MORE concentrated study of my studies... yah.... as Jamie reminds, BACK to Jazz... *sHit*

SabBatH

2005-07-10T20:10:00.000-07:00

again... 2dae was sabbath... though had service today, still went church for bible study + giving tuition.. =p

mmmm.... i lead worship 2dae!!! so excited.... had nv lead in my whole wide life.... well.. thank God for iwan... he's the guitarist... thank God for allowing mi the chance to lead, and to serve =p yiPpEe!!!

ohx.. anyway.. i kind of like sorted out my thoughts...

i am a student.. yup... n my responsibility is of cos study wad... y m i so involved in other stuffs.... if i am good in my studies.. den i go get involved.. ok. perhaps have nth to say... but my studies alr so koyak still i want to get so involved.... m i really playing my part as a student.... as in.. talking about the main priority....

i argued... this is really my interest... my character.. my personality... so-outdoor... but again... time is always a factor we have to seriously consider right? too bad no1 can have control over time.. if i cant handle time well, if i cant manage time well... den i think i shldnt jolly well think of being so involved in other matters... GET MY PRIORITIES RIGHT!.. i warned myself...

i just want to get myself set into studying.. and God.. and Church.... for tis 2 yrs... or even less.... i m gonna start focussing on wad shld b focused and b focus in wadever is to be focus.... yah!!! FOCUS!

thanks to my beloved leaders.... Kris + Cindy.. n my beloved dear ShiYin!!! for taalkin sense into mee... n encouraging... pls continue to guide me... Thank You...

FruiTs

2005-07-07T20:00:00.000-07:00

Maybe these fruits will cheer mi up a bit...

begin to wonder if i have made de right choice by entering Jc... i dun regret... dun mistaken.. its just wondering.. somehow i feel that i am not coping well.. oh.. not feeling.. is really not coping well... of course i know the reason... it's they style of writting essays that got into into all these shit.... well.... thank God for teachers there to help... but still, willl i be able to improve in time? so tt i can make it thru promos... n finally a level?

worried n doubtful....

My CT (civics tutor) or u may call it 'form teacher' talked 2 me ydae..... my results horrendous lah.... econs very jia lat... literature, needless to say.. even the teacher alerted her about mi lor.... whats my problem manx? i did try hard lor.. very hard lah... but... ...

2dae had 2 Lit tests... both not enuf time to do... quite confident though after finishing... few minutes later.... again was appalled to find out tt i did exactly de oposite.... misread qns? out to point? or whatever u call u... its a goner....

i noe wad the teachers gotta say lahx? think they dun understand wads my prob loR.... hope they do though..... =(

i just wan to gorge myself wif those fruits!!! uncle n auntie boughht so much for us.... it's really in a bunch 1 lah.. mangosteen.... rambutan n oooooo DURIAN!!! yippeee... i m happy wif fruits..... too bad no bananas.... =p

oH..bElovEd mUmMmYy...

2005-07-05T18:55:00.000-07:00

ydae morning.. mama fall down!
she was standing on the chair.. wanna take sumtink from a cupboard high above.. n plop... down she falled... haad legs n arm swollen.. back hit the edge of the floor( Thank God not the head)... n yah.. she was very down... =(

her right hand all the while was not in a good shape.. this fall made it even worse... went to c those chinese physician.. duno wad they do to her... hand wrapped up like dunno wad.. so poor thing...canot move here move there..... which means also wad? my bro n i haf to take over most over the housework!!! oh nO!

doing laundry was ok.... sweeping floor, mopping floor, cleaning table n stuffs of course was alright.. but nv did i imagine... i have to do something i dun quite like.... COOKING!!! actually it was not really cooking.. assisting her i would say? but i really dun like the idea of stepping into the kitchen, preparing food n making you sweaty all over....

aniway, just had dinner... n yah... chop pork... throwing food into the wok.... hasnt been doing all these since sec 4 fNN.... haiyo! maybe the qns will be posted to me again? "so now, do u like cooking?" my ans will b still NO!!! not a wee bit.... bleahx...

nevertheless, i have to still do all these stuffs until my mama fully recover.... now i realise how important she is.... my 1st button dropped from the uniform.... but paisehx to ask her sew for mi... haf to prepare breeakfast for my 'beloved' bro... cos initially was my mama do one, but she injured her hand, so inconvenient.. so i have to do it... =(

pls .. pray that she gets well soon... desperately so..........

diStuRbed silEnce

2005-07-03T20:55:00.000-07:00

2dae was sabbath.. went to church, as usual.

i was reminded to check out kris's blog.. always, she wrote wise stuffs.. n it's always a pleasure to read her posts. n i was reminded by 1 of the poem she shared months ago....

written bt an American High School teacher

He came to my desk with a quivering lip
The lesson was done.
"Have you a new sheet for me, dear teacher,
I've spoiled this one"
I took his sheet all soiled and blotted
Gave him a new one all unspotted
And into his tired heart I cried:
"Do better now, my child"

I went to the throne with a trembling heart
The day was done
"Have you a new day for me day, Dear Master?
I've spoiled this one"
He took my day all soiled and blotted
And gave me a new one all unspotted
And into my tired heart He cried:
"Do better now, my child"

2005-07-02T19:36:00.000-07:00

i went to a weebbie.. n this is a story pasted by some1.. perhaps could share with you guys this story... How nice it is!! =) To meet Jesus when we least expects it!!

Ruth went to her mail box and there was only one letter. She picked it up and looked at it before opening, but then she looked at the envelope again.There was no stamp, no postmark, only her nameand address.

She read the letter:
Dear Ruth:I`m going to be in your neighborhood Saturdayafternoon and I'd like to stop by for a visit.
Love Always, Jesus

Her hands were shaking as she placed the letter on the table.

"Why would the Lord want to visit me? I'm nobody special. I don't have anything to offer."

With that thought, Ruth remembered her empty kitchen cabinets.

"Oh my goodness, I really don't have anything to offer. I'll have to run down to the store and buy something for dinner."

She reached for her purse and counted out its contents. Five dollars and forty cents.

"Well, I can get some bread and cold cuts, at least."

She threw on her coat and hurried out the door. A loaf of French bread, a half-pound of sliced turkey, and a carton of milk...leaving Ruth with grand total twelve cents to last her until Monday.

Nonetheless, she felt good as she headed home, her meager offerings tucked under her arm.

"Hey lady, can you help us, lady?"

Ruth had been so absorbed in her dinner plans, she hadn't even noticed two figures huddled in the alley way. A man and a woman, both of them dressed in little more than rags

"Look lady, I ain't got a job, ya know, and my wife and I have been living out here on the street, and, well, now it's getting cold and we're getting kinda hungry and, well, if you could help us. Lady, we'd really appreciate it."

Ruth looked at them both. They were dirty, they smelled bad and frankly, she was certain that they could get some kind of work if they really wanted to.

"Sir, I'd like to help you, but I'm a poor woman myself. All I have is a few cold cuts and some bread, and I'm having an important guest for dinner tonight and I was planning on serving that to Him."

"Yeah, well, okay lady, I understand. Thanks anyway." The man put his arm around the woman's shoulders, turned and headed back into the alley.

As she watched them leave, Ruth felt a familiar twinge in her heart."Sir, wait!"

The couple stopped and turned as she ran down the alley after them. "Look, why don't you take this food. I'll figure out something else to serve my guest."She handed the man her grocery bag.

"Thank you lady. Thank you very much!""Yes, thank you!" It was the man's wife, and Ruth could see now that she was shivering.

"You know, I've got another coat at home. Here, why don't you take this one." Ruth unbuttoned her jacket and slipped it over the woman's shoulders. Then smiling, she turned and walked back to the street...without her coat and with nothing to serve her guest."Thank you lady! Thank you very much!"

Ruth was chilled by the time she reached her front door, and worried too. The Lord was coming to visit and she didn't have anything to offer Him. She fumbled through her purse for the door key. But as she did, she noticed another envelope in her mailbox."That's odd. The mailman doesn't usually come twice in one day." She took the envelope out of the box and opened it.

Dear Ruth: It was so good to see you again. Thank you for the lovely meal. And thank you, too, for the beautiful coat.
Love Always, Jesus

The air was still cold, but even without her coat, Ruth no longer noticed.

i thank God...

2005-07-02T19:15:00.000-07:00

i just reached home... from school.. from project...

i really want to praise God.. as in, He made my day so perfect lor..

our project was kinda stucked.. cos we have none to interview, as in.... those ppl either doesnt wan to reply us.. or.. i duno.... so, we were so 'jammed' and just decided to charged into their territories to check dem out... rather than sitting here, starts to rot, and not doing anything...

it was kinda risk taking i would say.. imagine its a saturday, you wouldnt b sure if it's open... you wouldnt b sure whether those big shots will take their precious time off to some little nuts... even if by some miracle, they would, will they be willing to share wif us readily on any information we may need....

Hey.. but guess wad? it's really by GOD'S GRACE dat upon reaching there, they were actually having a flag there thingy... so, it was opened... more than that... the man that we r supposed to be speaking to, actually held some high managerial position... n these kind of ppl dun actually needs to go out to the field and ask for donations... moreover, he was free at that point in time, and managed to spare us 1hr...

oh... something great is to come...

the best ting is, the interview was so engaging, so interesting, so fruit-bearing and... whatever u describe it... this wasnt the first interview i have done.. but it was definitely another time, when i c how this someone actually is so willing to share with us little nuts, and engages so much in this conversation...

i begin to praise Him... sometimes we really cant expect God isnt it? as in, what we asked for maybe so so simple, so so undetailed, so so unspecific, so so dry and so so plain... yet God knows whats best for us.. and always give us that best...

The bible says, "Ask and you will be given" ... and He being the magnaminous Him, always give more den what we ask for... And of course, it's always for the good of our own...

do we only truely give thanks when good things happen? indeed, as the cliche goes, do we treat God like out 7-eleven? well, search my soul...

i remebered last wk's sermon... kris sayed.. we must treat God as if He is useless... wait... b4 u accuses me as a member of the cult, she means that, if God is useless... will we still worship Him, praise Him, thank Him, glorify Him, love Him as b4???

well, time to search da soul...

violent agitation

2005-06-29T17:01:00.000-07:00

how apathetic i was when i realise that 'A' Level Chi Oral will be just this Friday...

appalled at the news, i couldn't help recalling how teachers at Wgs actually helped us students last year when we were taking our examination...

this is the first time i felt so unprepared at the approaching of a major exam! but like the previous times, i'm gonna commit this oral examination into His hands... Wonderful Saviour.. He will definitely give a leg up...

oh.... so packed with so many homework.... PW interviews not done... Evaluation of Articles is to be done... Chi book review due on Fri but still not done.. mugged for Econs ydae .... 2ml is Lit test... 2 texts n 1 essay... Fri is Gp Essay test n Chi Oral!!! SAT still have ECONS make up lessons and PW meeting... Thank God Sunday is coming.. Thank God Monday NO SCHOOL!!! Youth Day.... How bleSseD!!!

+++oh.. aniwae.... knowing that i have oral exam! pls pray for me can??? need lotsa prayer support.. thanks ppl... love ya... =p+++

1st Day Of School

2005-06-27T17:48:00.000-07:00

bAck to Pjc.. Back to Studies... the dun-wan-to-go-back-school feeling is super heavily felt.. guess all students now experiences it... haf too much fun alr... suddenly go back school.. a bit ddifficult... but still, have no choice... *sigh*

well, actualy was not that bad... at least today's lesson is not that bad... hmm.. only Lit can felt super nervous.. cos i was suppose to hand in an esssay on 13... only handed in this morning...

the teacher is super fierce + strict 1 lor....!!!

But.. after that.. it was ok!!! haha.. joke wif him some more.. mayb he is not that fierce after all...

thank God.. my prayer is answered... at least i dint get shouted by him

*whEw*

-gonna face another day-

dEfinitELy moRe dEn FUN!

2005-06-25T21:52:00.000-07:00

went sentosa ....! w UthNiTy n some young adults.... tt's right... it was exactly more den fun.... as usual, i bcame the butt of the jokes most of the time... 1st we started wif a intro game whereby we muz snatch some NOUGAT (Ben bought it frm Perth) ... guess wad! i got the most.. but, that's not the end of the story, w most of the Nougats, u haf to same the same amt of stuffs... ABT youRself.... so cool right? i went blah-ing abt myself den...

ssooon, it started to rain... quite heavvily after dat... den we all started singing soongs... i was again told to Shut Up! bcos as i sing, the rain will somehow amazingly gets heavier....

The rest of the day was specially pleasurable as we started poking fun at each other.. playing other multiple games n so on...

a day of joy usually pass quite fast... n the sun sets prompting at our leave... well.... good thing alwaes ends.. but the best thing is... this is not the only time we gonna have this... there's gonna b another time!!! yea yea...

ok.... n most of all...

.... ....

our utmost gratitude is to Cindy!!! she is so happenning lahx..... came up wif so much games.... plan the whole thing n they whole day..... she reali made de day.... as in.. if she nv plan it, we wouldnt even enjoy this day lah.... n thank you her... for her effort...n i believe each n EVERY 1 of us enjoyed ourselves in a way or another....

thank you Cindy

sHy... 17 soOn leRx...

2005-06-23T22:26:00.000-07:00

wEnt to suppoRt bRos in their floorball competition.. well played ppPl, though dint get any price, but well done lahx... =p

after tt... went swimming wif shy.. haha.... v fun.. we played a lot of stuffs.. n sumtink super embarrassing happen lah.. shy!!! dun tell ani1 kx? i m going to kill u if u said dat lah...

on the way home was the best part lah.... not reali on the way home lahx.. but durin the times wen i m alone wif her, talked to each other abt a lot of stuffs.. tink it has been quite awhile since we do that bahx? hahaha... haf a lot of fun.. as in.. spending time wif ur best fren is the best time ever? haha.. for me, yes... mmm.... stop smiling shy....

oh yah... there's tis part where she asked if i gt anitink to tell her.... romantic or touching stuffs.... i m like.. "c'mon, this is not my FORTE!" ahhaha..

but shy, here it goes....

guess it has been 4 yrs.... almost 5? tt we knew each other? mmm... well... of cos has alot to sae.. but yet, during the 4 to 5 yrs... a lot has been said alr.... guess it is onli thru looking at both of our hearts, then we will noe wad is reali to be said or not to said bah...

not words can describe how much we treasure each other, how much we care for one another, how much trust there is, how much fun we had, how sad we are when sumtink happens to 1 of us, how pisssed off we get wif each other, n of cos, how much we love each other.....

though we may haf diff views on sum stuffs... (e.g: guy's looks)..but guess wad, it's that difference that brings us closer to each other right?

countless letter we haf wrote to each other, n as days pass, we eventually grows up... shy, jus hope tt we may b able to grow to an even mature stage, both in age n in sporitual maturity... hmmm... n do things together.. like getting m****** hahaha... u noe wad.. we talked abt it while swimmin juz nw... yuP.. ttt's abt it....

i love u shy!!!

bEloveD sHy's bdaE coMing soOn arR!

2005-06-22T22:30:00.000-07:00

early in the morning was out wif clement at the stadium to run alr... so hardworking right?
wahx... he super jia lat....like monster lidat... kip asking me to run.. but alright lahx.... we quite slack at times.. haha.... i wan muscles...no more flabby fat thighs.... ahhaha...

oh yah.. den went out wif krin, cy to give shy surprise at Ngee Ann... think she a bit surprised lah... wahx.. we like go thru a lot ok.. haha...as in.. nid a lot of ppl's cooperation wor... hmm.. happi right? den after tt both krin n cy wanted to go engineering blk to do some "eye excercise".. hahaa... look at guys in another words... ok lah.. not much cute guys..... *sad-ed*

freaKin oUt! it's the last wk of holidays

2005-06-21T23:37:00.000-07:00

nth much to blog actually.. was just wonderring how fast time flies... b4 we realises it, school going to re-open soon... b4 we even realises it, i have to wake up at 5+ everiday againx.. n b4 i even realises it, guesss wad? I have not finished my homework!!! so sadist eh... cum to think of it.. my goodness... want to faint...!!!

econs..... LIT!!! Gp.... n wad.. wif almost 6 more days onli???

how m i going to do it man?

Girl, must jia you ler....

Father, i keep on praying for your strength to strengthen me....
i pray for your grace and mercy...
i pray for you gooodness and love to be upon me n my life...
once again Lord, open the eyes of my heart to allow me to see u, hear u, feel u and experienced u
In Jesus's name, Amen

God is good, All the time

2005-06-19T19:58:00.000-07:00

tis is sunday... it's sabbath.... n guess wad.. once again.. i experienced Him ...

i noe tt it is Him consoling, comforting, assuring n protecting me....

i am super assured, super encouraged to move on....

though the situation mite b hard, but i will take heart... bcos i noe Jesus is going on with me....

this is not once, but twice tt God has been telliing mi the same thing.... i have to reali work hard... pray hard... b not b faithless animore... but super faithful... indeed, he works at His own time.... what more m i worried for? For everitink is planned in His kingdom.. n For His kingdom, His will b done....

i Love u Lord, i realli do...

oh... yahx.... how blessed i am... for i am granted with such amazing bro n sis...
we played a lot of games 2dae... volleyball... captain's ball, floorball n stuffs!!!
hmmm.. super exciting lahx.... n the best part is... all this ppl get so super irritated wit mi cos i cant stop making a lot of noise n singing dum dum dum dum... all they way.. haha.... but i noe they are happi wif it lah.. they love it correct? lolx...

oh yah.. another best part.. while playin volley, a gentle girl like mi.. *aheM* actuali falls down... AGAIN lahx... haha... n the worst thing is, 1 v tiny stone goes inside the freaking wound lor.. n i haf to like wad... DIG it out lah... so bloody... *PUI* like u noe... super gross lor....!

but... hmm... nice girl like mi... *ahem* againx.. haha... i find myself jumping ard like monkey 5 mins later lo.... super high... hmmm... nice wad... canot blame... oops! self praise ler...

aniwae.... played mafia... my goodness.. its like damn long since i last played lah.... n guess wad.. we won de game!!! woo hoo..... in the midst mi n iwan was like quarreling lahx... lolx.. kip attacking each other.. but nvm..... peijun ME!!! win de quarrel... haiya.. as usual... hahaha... n we.. de CIVILIANS win the freaking game!!! lolx.... iwan lousy.. iwan lousy... iwan LOUSY!

oops.. i m sory.. tt's me.... haha..

tiS iS fuN!

2005-06-17T19:15:00.000-07:00

oOh.. i'm backed... like i think 2 days ago from camp... sory for not blogging str awae... tired lah! haha.... it's gonna b a long blog... read it if u wan =p

it was a reali v good camp i guess.... on sunday night... walked.. as in hike all they way from sch to mc ritchie reservoir.... reached there like 1+ am alr.... hmmm... was a gr8 experienced though... have lotsa fun .... n the most exciting thing to noe is that we only took3 breaks all in all... strong n cool ppll we are, aint we? mmm...mmm... mm....

reached campsite Day1

in the morning we had outdoor cooking... n, we girls did the cooking lahx! can onli c the guys slacking there waiting for food.. esp .. hmm.. nvm... hahaha... had fun... made new discovery, tt we can actually cook Milo wif mess tin.. not bad ar.... after tt was canoeing.... toook 4 hrs... n spent sumtimes wif games n campfire prep. after that was sum other station games. v enriching.. as in, in the midst, learn a lot of precious lessons of leadership. 1 was climbing over walls! n i can sae the guys did a gr8 help by aiding we girls over... n ... had not little blue blacks on my legs too!

Day 2

we had PT!!! super lame lah.. do 70 sets of everiting cos we were late for 7 mins.... pumpings, cructches, jumping jacks, n a lot more.. how exciting tt was too!!! "excitng".. den, we did all the high elements ... as in rock climbing n stuffs... v happi! i began to realise myself even more.. tt i can even do much more den i thought i could.. hmm... i remember how that Mr kevin Ang suan-ded mi okk.... he shouted from below while i was high in the air :"WAHz... short legs still can go so fast huhx" he's like damn good lah!!! as in... "GOOD" ... made mi so embarrassed tru'out the camp lor...

i love flying fox n absail... haha.. was kena tekan by teacher again... he left mi halfway down the walll for absail n made mi wave to the ppl down there wif 1 hand lah...!! i was so super scared den.. imagine the instruction was to hold on to ur ropes n nv let go.. u were halfway down the wall.. aroud 3 storey high... n the teacher made u like wad... WAVE???? nice 1 lor.. best!!!

after tt.. campfire... let mi tell u... everi1 was like damn high lah! we reali danced like no1's business..... n made a lot of noise n stufss.... so exciting... hahaha... n this is the best part.... the camp commmandant actuali told us that the night was a free n ez nite.. the grp can chat all the whille... lights out at anitime we want... ahhaha.. best .. n b4 we knew it... it was 11 n the campfire ended..

n.... at ard 12... fire drill.. n they call this let us have fun lah..... then they scolded us.... without whistle... without torch light.. without proper shoes.... take long time.. chided us at our "leadership qualities".... finally... was slp-ing time.. at 1... not slping time for me... had sentry duty..made rounds ard the campsite wif zhao qi n ming yean... den... 2+ den can slp....

beep beep beep beep againx... fire drill!!! at 4+..... so crazy... the same whole routine repeated.. scoldings n stuffs.... den.... had PT all the way till 6+.. then suddenly the teacher asked us to change into our swimwear... we all freaked out i guesss....

den... they made us go into the water n sing n shout sch song n sch creed! facing those kelongs lo.... so mani ppl lahx..... hmm.. they were lamer then us lor!... by the way, it was now DAY 3 alr.... though it is the last day, n all wanted to go hm assap.... those teachers suddenly tell us we will WALK back to sch from JBAC.... tian aR!... shagged we were n they did tis to us lahx..... how good are there..... *sarcastic smile*

hmm.. glad to noe tt after tt it was all a lie.... haha... had photo taking... cleaning up.... den back to school.. wif BUSES!!!

i love the camp! at least we spent quality time wif my fellow grp mates... my frens n i reali mixed v well lor.. though we dun reali noe each other, but we had a lot of fun together n reali bonded well together.. esp wif the girls... =p

it help mi discover more of myself.... n more of my life.... more of de ppl ard me.. more of the things ard me...

thank God for allowing mi go thru this.. i love u.. =p

caMp leR camP leR

2005-06-11T22:50:00.000-07:00

if u read this on 11, then, just to let you know, i am going campin tomorroe!!!
leadership TRAINING camp lahx.. so, please PRAY for me!!!
nevertheless, super excited for it... haha.. i am going to enjoy it...
hmmm mmmmmm

if you read this on 12th to 15th...
i am probably suffering at jalan bahtera adventure camp now...
mayb enjoying, i duno
stilll, PRAY FOR ME

backed on 15th! yeax...

i am gonna miss home... i will... n miss all of u... hmm.. mayb onli some

The Word and Drawing near to God

2005-06-11T22:36:00.000-07:00

went church today... felt that i didnt go church for quite long already. but thank God for allowing me to church today.

had Brother Hanson as a speaker today. he shared a lot and definitely, received God's message...

He shared on how important is God's word and drawing near to God. Psalm 1... on how important to chose friends that we can walk. stand. and sit in the counsel of. by following advises of sinful ppl, guess wad.. it's going to bbe a super disastrous ending...

this is definitely not coincedental. last yr i think, Vivien bless me with Psalm 1 on my birthday. months ago, my discipleship group memorixed de whole of psalm 1... the last friday, again Kris shared Psalm 1 to 3 during Chongster... today. psam 1 again...

i know now how God's work. i am reminded again how powerful and zun God's timing will be.

i reminded myself again, of how regular or perhaps, how serious am i with God's word. do i reali treat them like as if wad i am suppose to treat it as?

i search myself and i know the answer. i did... i DID... in the past.. now? not really i guess...

i must hang on i tell myself, though times might be quiet and nothing seems to be happening. no voice, no touch, no special feeling during personal time with Him, guess i still have to hang on... so that one day when i really feel Him, i'm gonna feel super excited and think that it will be worth it afterall... i believe. trust mi.. n God, hear me i pray...

*Lord, i screwed up this time. Forgive me. i asked for a new sheet to start all over again. Listen to me i ask. thank You for ur works, help me as i live. Discipline may u grant me. i desperately need you. Do not forsake mi Lord... help me to be faithful and to trust and love You in ALL circumstances. In Jesus's most precious name, Amen.*

Give thanks with a grateful heart
Give thanks to the holy one
Give thanks because He has gaven Jesus Christ, God's son

And now let the weak say i am strong
let the poor say i am rich
because of what the Lord has done for us

Give thanks

gone forever

2005-06-07T06:17:00.000-07:00

how true is it.. when ppl says that when one is gone, one star will drop from the sky.. its not true.. at all... cos b4 night befalls, b4 stars comes out.. she was gone.. gone once and for all... to a place.... i know where... but the rest don't... she was gone.... no more goodbyes... no more smiles... just gone... even b4 i came.. even b4 i reached, without notice, without warning... was shocked, overwhelmed, sad, upset, n wad? to know that she has alr goone..

always, i came with a smile n softly addressed her "ah po" and she would smile back too,
that day i cried out in tears as i kneeled all the way in to her deathbed. she dint smile. she just laid there. cold n stiff.
always, she will scream for us to go to bed, to go n bath
now, no more.
always, i will wave goodbye at the gates... she will smile and say Bye Bye
that day, i wanted to wave to her, but there's no her.

ah po, i miss u

how empty is the house without u.
how different is the place without u.
how is the world now without u.

i m shocked, so shock, still in shock
can this not happen?
its too sudden

no one has literally left me for such a long time.
left... as in really leave...
this hurts... a lot

coUgh n coUgh n coUgh n cOugh..

2005-05-28T21:37:00.000-07:00

goodness sake... pls stop coughing... it's like super irritating!!! it's itching my throat... n makin my voice so super hoarse.. i dun sounds sweet anymore... OH NO!

2dae went to sch.. for a camp briefing.. hmm...i quite like my group members.. think they are a bunch of quite happening ppl...

the talks n stuffs was a bit boring though.... Outdorr Activities stuffs... First Aid stuffs... Evacuation stuffs... all learn n listen b4 lor.... ok lah.. perhaps can use as revision... but, can reali slp during those talks lor...

i think the camp is quite tough eh..... sunday nite.. 12th.. hiking to mac ritchie from school.... den the rest of the days at Jalan Bathera campsite... heard gonna have canoe n another hiking... den.. leadership camp... what do u tink??? hmmmm! aniwae.. have been to tis campsite 2-3 times alr... pri n sec sch... n... training camps... have a lot b4.. so shldnt b a prob 4 fitness conditions.. but.. quite scared thou... cos it has been like hundreds of years since i went to these "stuffs"... LOOKING FORWARD THOUGH!

oh... i had this studpid kinda taste in my mouth now... made to eat.. or rather swallow tis pill by beloved mama..... alRitx... how NICE!! yumMy yUmmy YUCKS!

gueSs wAd.. it iS thE HOLIDAYS!!! yiPeE..

2005-05-27T22:45:00.000-07:00

oh yah... hope u can c how excited i am lah.... its de holidays... hahaha... de period of time i have been waiting for since i started myy Jc life!!!

yea yea!

oh yAhx.... though it is de holidays... but i have a lot of work ar! a lot of reading up.. a lot of revision n stuffs!!! so actually, not much time to play or enjoy also .... bbut i guess, i reali need this time to do a lot of catch up.. den i'll b able to do more better ... (HOPE SO)

hmmm.. 2dae *me *pris *debra actually PON Geo lesson!!! 1st time in History worx... hmm.. quite exciting though.. haha...

n... while slacking at the cantteen wif them.. tis happpened...

Shawn (my House captain) smsed mi:peijun, can u c mi at the canteen for awhile...
i went....
mE: yes?
Shawn: mR ang (House teacher in charge) wants to c u
mE:HUH!!! for wad!!!
shawn: u R in trouble....
mE:wad... wad i do wrong!!!! huhx huhx huhx... hmm... hair ok nort.. skirt shoort nort.. earrings nid 2 take out nort!!!

n.. to cut the story short.. actuali i am reccommended to bcum the house commitee.. either vice captain or secretary....

i was like.. waD!!!

den after tt.. crapped a lot wif the teacher.. he sae i v crappy.... (diAo)

he ask mi wad cca i am in.. i said dance.. n he showed the one -kind face... wad's his prob man!!!

den shawn says: she looks like IVY, (thou i dunno hu is it lah)

den my ang says: nahx... she's(mE) uglier...

n sueyly(if theres's such word) MR ANG IS MY GROUP FOR THE LEADERSHIP TRAININGG CAMP...

n he assured me... tt he WILL TE KAN MI!!!

wahx.... i will so enjoy my camp man!!! so "enjoy"

i aM bAckeD, bAckeD n iLL!

2005-05-23T19:24:00.000-07:00

hmmM.. i'm back from msia!!!!

fun? enjoy? hmmm.. quite lah... can say it's kinda boring.... but nvm, at least i caught much more sleep.. n has done much more reading up of my Lit book DDracuLLa....

oh yah... ate a lot too!!! it's like non stop 1 lor... keep eating n munching non stop.... enjoy though!

aniway, felt a bit sick.. since sat morning.... flu + cough till nw.. a bit dizzy too... but cant slp or rest u call it... i have tons of work still...but maybe after i finish my Geo i will go n relax... because tomoro no ECONS!! haha...

was kinda sad when i was online n amanda started talking to me.... they said they have an excellent time on sat after Econs make up lesson... becos they sort of gave XY a farewell parrty.. oh man.. heard tt she cried.... think she cant bear to leave uus... but.. hmm.. nevertheless... all the best to her future endeavours!!!

oh!!!! i've decided to go on a hiking trip in msia!!! at segamat... quite a famous place ... n lots of ppl go hiking there... wah.. i am so excited lah!!! 1stly, been quite long since i hike... n besides, macritchie, sungei buloh, pulau ubin which i have been so many times i going to a much more foreign place!!! overseas some more eh! oh.. so excited... 10th June.!!! yea.. hope i have nth on ... yea...!!!

thiS iS thE dAy!!!

2005-05-20T20:17:00.000-07:00

hmM.. i'm actuali feeling so happi lahx.... cos its going to be a long weeeekend!!! alrit mAn!!!
budden, dun tink its gonna b v nice.... cos i'll b going mSia jux 2ml morning.... grandad's death anniversary....
i got a lot of homeworks man! means i have to rush all of dem 2nite.... if i wan to enjoy my "holidays" ....
i have to skip my econs make-up lecture 2ml...! it's like so importanT!!! cos i dun understand it... n this is going to b a v good help... but nvm, ask fren 2 fill mi in ... so-the-no-choice
also, i'm going to miss an excellent time in church on sat!! I.D service... hmm.. heard tt's there's going to b sumtink super exciting happening.... hmmm... hMMMM... HMMMMMM!!!
more more more!!! HEAVEN having a gathering at sentosa... in case sum may not noe wad's HEAVEN, it's my sec sch clique..... gort ME, EVELYN, SHI YIN, CHYE YAN, KARINE, PUAY YONG, DA JIN, ARMANI, BENJI, YU FAN, n a new member! WAI KIAT worx.... ahha... lots of fun i suppose.. hai... i'll miss it....

ydae had disciple-ship.. cindesheep n chongster! combined forces... hmmm....reali thank God.. cos the msg shared by cindy was so relevant to my life..
it's abt WORRYING!!! yah.. i guess.. all in all, i dun have to worry abt anitink tt cld seems so serious? cos ... God is taking charge yahx?

waHx.. den ydae gort a lot of homework lah... GP, LIT n ECONS!!! den haha.. *Nicholas v good ar! he help mi do my schematic plan.. econs wor... wahhaha... work so hard ar..... help mi do alot of sttuufs eh! wah.... so touched..... but he wans mi treat him BAO YU lorx... siao 1.... lOl...

aniwae, was feeling a bit of sadness in me for de past few dayx
my cls... 24 peeps... n nw... 1 of dem leaving for Ngee Ann poly...
3 more apppealing out of PJC heading for a different route in life....
can ur actuali feel it? tt the cls is going to b spiltted... we knew each other barely more den 3 mths lah.... n we have to part so soon?
w/o me saying much, guess sum of ur oso can guess the reason for leaving rit? tooo stress, worries of unable to cope, worries of A LEVELS.... hmm.... more n more....
sumtimes i wonder, if dey cant, can i?? noe its wrong lah.. musnt think like this, but cant help feeling this sumtimes
i wan to have more faith in myself, i wan to reject all these thoughts in me.. sumtimes juz feel more worried, but guess wad.... as God assures, i'll b assured bah....

but.. i stilllll lllll llll will miss dem...

frEe! yEa

2005-05-18T20:30:00.000-07:00

hmm.. i am able to blog... yEax!!!

updates updates!!!

i am juz elected for being the vice-chair of Pioneer Dance's club!!!!
hooRay! ***so excited***

most amazing thing is.... me n my dance clique, de 5 of us are actualli ALLL in the committee....

tt's how cool we are..... happenNing us!

hmmm... guess i am rather excited n happy today... tomorrow no tests, not much homework, and i juz finish typing my Project work stuffs... which means, i am actually for once, FREE!!!

but, the hardworking have to do research on Geo homework :( thou it's due next wk, but i gt a feeling i wun have time to do it then.. hmm hmmm hmmmm....

God is just so good all the time.. He made mi meet different and many ppl thru this life!!!
May He continue to be the Light of my life.....

oh... Light of my life... lalalala....

soOoOO lOng sincE.. ... ...

2005-05-14T23:41:00.000-07:00

i think i am super cool lah.... hmm... its like reali blog in duno how many hundreds years...
hmmm... well done huh...

the past week, guess wad... it was full of homeworks, projects, tests, n more...

but guess wad, dun think i am any-how or any-what stressful in ANY areas....

believe its God's strength....?

though it mite to difficult to have go thru tis week, but i felt that God is carrying me thru each day.... moreover, thru the week, i had fun with my friends.... have more fun with my chongster .... had definitely much more fun with a lot more things...

though times may b hard, but once u put God de main 'thing' in ur life... hey.. guess wad.... things may b as differently as wad u EXPECTS it to be!

went swiimming!!! not reali swim.. but sun tanning wif *janice.. wooooo... so fun.. i feel so tanned nw... red n tanned body... hahaha.... i love it... haiya!!! de most upset thing is the ***145*** wasnt there... oh no!!! hahaha... ***145*** a code btwn jan n me ... *ahEm* wahhahahahx....

den.. meet *shy, *min, *cindy, *joy n *ben... went town ... hmm... played table hockey... mi n ben was so great lah... we went 2 rounds out of 2 rounds ok... 1st round - 2 vs 4 n 2nd round- 2 vs 2,, haiya ... we r juz goood!! canot blame... gt mo shui 1 okx..... wahhahaha.... *evil grin*

so fun... mi n joy n shy actuali dint feel like going home, so we continued shoopping .... have so much fun wif my sis n bro..

n.. finali.. 2ml's God's day!!!

dun understand y there's sum ppl who reali dun feel like *celebr8ting* tt dae...

it's wad i'm looking forward to... tt's where i reali enjoy .... cos its all bcos of God that i will b there n is there to b happi...

cya ppl, most prob next wk...

fEeDin thE 500o

2005-05-07T23:13:00.000-07:00

ooOooh... guess wad..i'm actualli free... FREE to blog... oh.. i'm right!!! 'free' to blog...

just finish doing my P.I thing... research n stuffs... early sunday morning 2ml... instead of going church, i'm going to meet up wif my project group mates... oh no..... n my homework, tons of homework not done...

hmm.. nvm... God will proovide time 4 mi, wisdom, knowledge n grace.... pls pray 4 mE!!!

aniwae aniwae..... 2dae had an fantastic time in church wif God n God's children.. hmm... Thank you my beloved chuch leader, Deacon Kris for sharring a sermon on feeding the 5000 2dae wif us... thou it was a super familar passage, but 2dae she shared on sumtink tt we have never realised b4...

Jesus, as Human, yet sensitive n observant
He, as Human, reaacts differently from us.... or rather, we oso HUMANS, actually reacted differently as our Lord, Jesus reacts....

amazing huh.... tt Jesus can be so perfect....

i want to be Christ like!!! i want to be sensitive to the ppl ard me.. i want to be observant...

soOo bluE

2005-05-01T16:17:00.000-07:00

i'm blue.... is blue the right color to describe the day.. my feeling.. my emotions... or my life?

it's raining... n the raindrops juz keeps on dripping.... juz keeeps on pelting heavily on the ground

i wan to feel the soft drops... so gentle.. so smmooooth...

when the rain gets lighter.. i'll feel it...

i'll feel it... only when the rain gets lighter...

GreAt is thE mEasurE of ouR FATHER's LOVE!

2005-04-30T20:25:00.000-07:00

Think about His love
Think about His goodness
Think about His grace....
That brought us through

.. ... And Great is the measure of our Father's Love....

annnd... i juz want to have this thought in me foreverrr....

ppl... pls pray 4 me....

to you:i'm sorry... but still i tink i dun deserve sch a 'punishement' from u..
it's too heavy... too pain..

noRmaL vS aBnoRmaL

2005-04-29T23:37:00.000-07:00

normal day.. normal week....
will this life onli carries on to be like this...
this normal??? how normal???

normal..abnormal... not very normal afterall...
school, lectures, tutorials n homework...
God, Quiet Time, Bible, Purpose Driven Life...
Friends, chat, laugh, jokes, craps, gossips...
normal? abnormal? not bery normal after all...

friends and family... school and home...
church and heaven... earth and hell....
so far they are... yet near it seems
how long do i need to stay here
can i go to Heaven fast

how is this purpose going to be fulfilled?
have far am i from this purpose God has given me...
i can achieved this goal... this purpose...
but how far am i?
God, help me, will u...

it'S mY biRthdAY

2005-04-20T20:10:00.000-07:00

hmmm... 3 wholE days dint blog.... tired... no time... n ok.. i admit.. i'm lazy... =p
yet... in that short 3 days, it seems tt 100 things happen... hmmm... good tings of cos... hahaha...

birthday cel3bration!

hmmm.... 17 april... sunday...
happily in church having vocal lessons... shy* she 'dated' mi out.. haha.. told mi the rest wasnt free to celebr8 bdae wif mi lah... so while waiting ..... i was super shocked when i saw Dajin Benji n YuFan lah... haha.. they juz walked in to my church... n my jaws dropped when i saw dem... so the-dint-expect feeling..... i rem myself still in a shock cos at 1st i reali tot they wouldnt b free to celebr8 bdae wif mi lor... especially sum of dem who is working.. haha..

den we went to mrt station to meet Karine, Chye Yan, Puay Yong.. hmmm.... played pool... n Evelyn joined us... went to eat Japanese stuffs in a restaurant at AMK....

we took a lot a lot of fotos.. n surprise again.. i had a piece of pandan cake wif candle by dem... haha....

den den den.. b4 tt.... walking onthe streets

shyin n chye yan n the rest of dem was whispering here n there....

ME: hey... wad ur whispering.... tell mi lah... ur muz b up to sumtink rit.....

Shy:wah man... u noe we r up up to sumtink.. den can u go 1 corner far away n wait for us???????

i was super shock lah.. gt surprise lidat 1 ar??? hahaha... make bdae gal go 1 corner... ok. fine .. nvm... i went n waited for dem in a super far corner... came back, dey gave mi sumtink.... told mi can onli open on my bdae... 12am tt time.. hmm.. ok.. =p

thank you guys.... *Evelyn* *CHye Yan* *karine* *Puay YoNg* *Dajin* *BenJI* *YufAn*
thanks *ARmani* thou u weren't there....
Thanks *SHY* most of all.. for the trouble of planning n stuffs... xin ku ni le... n i love all of u...
AS IN REALLI ALL OF YOU!!!

hmmm.... mon... 18 april...
normal day in sch... =p
met chen loon, his fren.. oops.. i forget his name.. n krin n shy ... we went KTV... haha...

sang songs n stuffs.. had reali a lot of fun lah... haha.. sae jokes n blah...

n i got my bdae present frm ChenlOon... hahaha...

blessed n super happi day as welll......

thank you ppl....

finalli finallli... tue... 19th april...

again.. normal dae in sch.. nt reali normal.... torturous PE lesson..... Went home super early n study foR econs test the next day.... lol... right... no discount ok... thou it's a bdae...

hmm... despite tt, was v happi.. cos my classmates tt i knew for barely 1 mth actualli remembers my bdae.. hahah... good ah...

shy met mi n pass mi present wor.. super touched lah.. cos she went down to city hall all by herself... hmm.. to buy my present... good right.... best fren leh... lol.... but .. she super blur.. forget to take out price tag.. hahhaha....

went home... n received mama's present in a super bright n shiny PURPLE box lah... inside was a lot of...... .... .... ..... .... *Hmmm* nvm.... lolx..... super surprised.. wad a funni mother i have.... yah.. also, she bought mi a healing cream for my legs....

sum of u noe lah.. my legs v ugly 1.. got scars... hahaha... so she bought it for me.. sweet rit?? dun play play ar... hahaha

bro n aunt n mama sang bdae song for mi too... got fruit cake... hehehe...

and aniwae.... the present tt i can onli open on my bdae itself remember? it was a small softtoy.. can record voice 1... n yup.. it was sumtink lidat....

" FEI DE!!! (which means Fat one) HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU... HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU... HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO PEIJUN.. HAPPI BIRTHDAY TO YOU...."

THE CAPS... yes.. it was super loud.... think they muz b shouting..no wonder they gave mi a hint... tt the whole ang mo kio... noe its my bdae ler... hahha...
yeax... my bdae... =p

biRthdAysSsSss...

2005-04-16T14:28:00.000-07:00

wAhAhax.... it has been long since i last blogged huhx.. yahx.. cos v busi with sch work n stuffs... for the past few days....

sch... work.... reached hm n study... homeworks... tutorials.. go thru lectures... slept less den 5 hrs... den go sch again... and thank God for the more den 10hrs sleep today!

hmmm.... i love weekends... c the reason why?

birthday coming.... yippee.... but it seems to me tt tis yr is nth special.... i recalled how i look forward to my birthday months ago as i starts to countdown n stuffs... but tis yr.. feel no excitement...

tis tues... got PE make up lesson.. how funni.... moreover, wed gt test... how 2 enjoy de bdae....

but nvm... hope it will b blessed day aniwae....

sumhow.. sumwhere.. felt v unfamiliar during tis time of the year... for the past 4 yrs... how diff was my bdae spent...

sec 1.... outside sch... at Vista Park... we had cakes... childish us, we played with flour and eggs and colorings.... there was a lot of ppl... sec 1 to sec 2.... primary sch frens to sec. sch frens... received presents.... "memorablily"... we kena complained by sum ppl... sae we noisy n stuffs... sae we dirtied the whole place... we was like super shocked.. not kknowing wad to do at all... naive n childish us remember? finalli.. my super MAN kor kor-Jimmy Cai helped mi SETTLED the whole prob.. haha... outside WGS, probs created, joy lavied... memories carved...

sec 2....School Offical Opening coming.. what to do? Reheasals n stuffs lah.... n.... guess. wad? FUll dress rehearsal SOMEMORE! hahhaa... b4 dat went eat Long John Silver with Ron... n then go back schx... finished the rehearsal.... n there, my buddies in RCY n my seniors all wwent bonkers.. i recalled myself running the whole parade square like no1's business.... 1.5ml water bottle came to me.. n whoosh.. 'they' came over mi... hahha... Joan Ow... RCY senior... even threw ICE.... (duno where she get it aniwae) n threw it INTO my clothes..... there it goes, my yr 2 of birthday in WGS...

sec 3... besides all the sabo's n stuffs in sch... went out to eat wif my buddies.. gt a lot of ppl ar... went to Adrian's mama shop n eat.. it's at Cine... the Yuki Yaki thing if i am nt wrong.. hmm.. excellent time spent... thou there's sum hiccups b4 tt, as in.. frens mood swinging, the time after tt was reali great.. we ate like nv eaten b4.. haha.. n then, we went shopping.... 3rd yr, spent wif my bestest frens in WGS...

sec 4... it was during the common test period... was mugging super hard.. u noe.. o'level.... still r.m.b got social studies.. n studied wif shy.... haha.. long story... den she was doing a lot of NETWORKING... n finalli... make mi so pissed... upon reachin hm... saw a BUNCH of ppl under my blk... wahahha.. there it is.. my surprise...

year 1... Pioneer Junior Colledge... as fun? as memorable.. oh God, let it be....

aniwae... HAPPY N A BLESSED BIRTHDAY TO BAOLING!!!! bestest butts forever... =p

smAshEd cAke on fAcE

2005-04-16T00:06:00.000-07:00

hEy.... i'm like super happy today!!! let mi show off.... *ahEm*

i was actuali thinking abt how much i yearn for a happy celebration tis yr... n there..... my bro n sis in church reali made it cum true for mi....

though i had a small cake... super creamy cake... all over my face.... n few strands of hair.... even more cakes into my nostrills..... tell u wad.. i super love tis day.... hahhhaa.... i reali dint expect to have tt surprise by them.. n they made everitink so perfect.... Gina steady lahx.... reali go push tt thing on my face.. wah man... tt feeling of cream n spongy things IN ur nostrills reali nt good lah... hahhaha....

most of all, it's Iwan n Zhiliang hu initiated tis.. reali thank God for these 2 brother.. n Iwan.. i guess.. bought tt Tiramisu.. my favourit!!! hmmm... c.... they noe mi so well.. how fortunate i am rightx.... hmmmm ....

best best best ting.. i received a new bible.... honestly, i expected to received a bible.. but.. not a reali nice 1... from Chongster, my discipleship grp, Iwan, Ben n J.ping.... n my dearest shepherd Kris, bought mi a PINK cover, silver lining, magnet some more de bible wor... ahhahha... small n convenient... exactly wad i nid to bring to sch n stuffs.....

in my previous blog, i THOUGHT i was not going to enjoy tis yr's bdae.. but guess wad.. i'm wrong, not in sch, maybe... but i still have my church bro n sis...my spiritual family.... forever....

tis reminded mi of a fact... a v impt fact... no matter wad the heck happens.... hmmmmmm... my church.... Uthnity... Young adults.... I.d.... Chongster.... Cindesheep, Each n every1 of dem.. will b there.....

I Love u... Kris, Cindy, Abigail, Zhiwei, Vivien, Alex... Gina, Joyz, Mag, Joey, Jann, Esther, Fang ning, Andy.... Benjamin, Iwan, Junping, ZhiLiang, WenDa,WeiJun, Clement, ShiYin, SiewLin, Huimin, Fiona, WanXuan, Cindy, Pris, Michelle, Joy, Fabien, Ben Ben...

Thank You ... Love all of u.. n pls be there when i need all of u....

wAd thE hElL

2005-04-09T17:22:00.000-07:00

oh yah.. so to her i'm juz an idiot lah... c how she describes me as an idiot makes mi super agitated.... y cant she udnerstands? y no 1 understands???

she complains abt how LOUD i was in the morning.. the door, wardrobe n stuufs... it's nt as if she doesnt noe's the door is so loud.. sumtimes she did it herself n i said nth... sumtimes, in fact all the time i didnt do it on purpose... if she reali tiinks tt i was mean enuf to purposely wake her up early in the morning.. den so be it... (i'm nt so bo liao aniwae)

worse cum to worse, i still dun tink it's nice to sae her own sister as an idiot... does she even noes the meaning to it??? nvm... brainless, inconsiderate n most of all.. idiotic... i cld nv imagine sum1 describes mi like this.... even my own sister.. yah.. how much i thank her 4 that... yah... perhaps i'm reali like this??? she knew mi for 17 yrs.. almost.. hu noes she's the 1 tt noes mi best....

2005-04-07T18:52:00.000-07:00

hmmm.... ... ... juz finished bathing... smell so clean... =p
had PE for the last lesson today.. ran 2.4 again. this is the 2nd 2.4 i ran tis wk... sporty right.... actuali is no choice 1... haha.. but anyway.. though tired, was fun as welll.. hmmm...was very happi wif myself when i did inclined pull up... cos i did the most amoung the girls in cls.. wahhaha.. although not reali alot, but ok lah.. satisfactory... =p

anyway... was reali disappointed 2dae... i went for the badminton trials on mon.... i was was quite confident... but not reali VERY confident at the same time lah.. but stilL, i reali hope tt i can get into it ... 2dae checked the list.. my name was not there... was super disappointed... cos i have no back up CCA.. den was at a loss.. n duno wad to join.... most of all, we have to hand in the CCA application form latest by 1230... n i realise i wasnt in the team at 1200...

kan chiong-ly, went to look for the dance teacher... n guess wad.. i'm in dance... yah... it's good lah.. i believe God has plannned this... n as Kris reminded, God is in control...

ydae i went for a play... Twelfth Night by shakespere.... hmmm.... was realli a v bad day..
at 1st in the morning.. i woke up super late at 6.30 n i'm suppose to get out of my house at 6.45... thank God, i made it... after tt, we left sch at 5.20 for the play.. drag here drag there... in the end, we was late for it...after meeting wif classmates at Clarke Quay... we took a taxi there.... it was raining super heavy n in the rain, we hailed for the cab... not forgetting it was the peak hrs.... the weather n stuffs, it took us exceptionally long to get a cab... finaly wen we gt 1... best.... it took us to the wrong place.... DBS arts centre is our destinated place n we ended up in DBS tower...

the motion repeated, in the rain, drenched n soaked, we hailed for cab again.... it was long long long after, den we gt 1.... wen we reached there... it was like super late alr lor....

inside the theatre, i was feeling cold n hungry... machium wanna fell sick that feeling.. thank God for His strength n protection tt reali holds mi on all the way until i reached hm at 1215am..

As for the play, was very good... nice n chim... haha... dun reali understand...
cos...
1stly, the slang was super difficult to figure out..
2ndly, we went there halfway n cant catch the ball in time
3rdly n most imptly, i think i fell asleep towards the ending of the play bcos i was super tired... physically n mentally.....

hahaha.. nevertheless, enjoyed the time... hailing for taxi under de rain n stuffs.. n no doubt, i saw frens hu realli care abt each other... n much more....

some times it's onli thru hiccups n difficult situations where 1 learns n sees another side of human... n another side of life...

2005-04-05T20:44:00.000-07:00

hahha.... after being suan for not blogging for the past few days... i become more den motivtated to ... JUST BLOG!

alritx... today had a super long day in sch.. lessons.. blahx.... make up lessons... blahx.. n then.. my badminton trial... it was ok for me.. i think i tried my best.... hope to be in the team.. the chance i can get into it was 50/50 i think.. judging from myself... wif my own's performance n other's too.... pray pray pray pray pray.. let God decides lah.... wait for my news 2ml huh!

aniwae... ydae was an excellent day.... it was philip's bdae... my restaurant manager back in Cozi Deli... met up wif *shy* *krin* iwan* n then we sprung up at the cafe to surprise him.. haha... he's like a grandfather!!! saw us den super happy... haha.. of cos.. cos got mi wad!! haha... den we had a lot of food..... ate so much at such a cheap price!!! after that... went out wif karine... shy.. n iwan... supposedly going to the s'pore river, but ended up in the lift to Swiss hotel... haha.. we r suppose 2 go up to the top floorr.. but all of us... super coward... dun dare.. cos we find our actions super 'illegal' in the end, we are at the TOP FLOOR!!! of Esplanade! haha.... took fotos n blah.x.x.x.

enjoyed myself so much.. me n karine espeacially went bonkers.... we skipped ... danced.. smobi-ed.... shout.. whatever.. all the way frm City Hall Mrt to Esplanade.. in another words, along City Link.. hahaha.. she lah.. was the 1 tt dragged mi into all these embarrassment... but... i enjoyed ydae more than anitink else.... so good 2 b wif my sec sch best fren... Karine, shiyin.. they alwaes make my day.. or rather nite, super pleasant... super wonderfull!!! wahahhaha...i'm blessed wif these frens... thank God...

after looking at a short video clip on East Timor, which reflects children, woman n man suffering basically.... at the same time, i was actualli studying Population durin Geo lesson tis few days.... i find sumtink so funny.. y is it tt, in such envt? such situations, whereby natural disasters are often met, scarcity n poverty are always ard dem? n yet, wen fotographs were taken of, they ALWAYS SMILE!... conversely, ppl in the more blessed situation doesnt seems as happy as they are supose to be.. i begin to wonder y is there such a situation.... yuan lai, one will nv b satisfied wif wat they have... n yet, to others, having so little, or a bit more is alr Heaven to dem....

education for ppl like us is indeed sumtink we groan abt everiwhere we go.... This teacher sucks.. tt lessons sucks.. super boring...dun like the sub n stuffs.. yah.. i begin to wonder... if i shld complain.. or reali thank God for tis situation... yes.. remind mi my frens.. if next time i evern starts Complaining on how Fortunate i am..

2005-04-02T22:30:00.000-08:00

went for sch c.i.p 2dae....

super tired... we were like inside tt bunch of newspapers n old clothes loading those stuffs here n there n everywhere....

but overall, it was very fun.. doing it in the rain... playin n throwing those stuffs ard wif all my classmates... crapping and all... yah... it was not a bad day.. =p

den went east coast park wif *cindy* *andy* *benjamin* *wan xuan* *shiyin* *siew Lin* *zi liang* *huimin* *iwan*
we rode bicycle for around 1 hr... n then hang out awhile... n then go home already... it has been so long since i took time off n do this... so relaxing...
tried roller blading for a short short while.. hmm.. canot make it.... slow... clumsy... careless... not confident... blahx.... others can do so well.. so nice.... mayb 1 day i go try that out n reali learnt tt one... =p

after a super long day... i waited for the bus 853 at the nearby bus stop.... after waiting for like almost half an hr.. i realised tt the bus does not operates on sat... disappointed + fustrated, i took another bus to amk.. den change to mrt.. den muz take bus again... during the journey... i look out of the window n see unfamilar places... i felt totally lost n was wondering if that was the corect bus i shld take....finaly.. i was realy relief to see the work Yio Chu Kang Link somewhere near.. goodness.. i was so thankful tt it was the correct bus n all my worries and stuffs juz go...

sudDenly.. i tot abt a life story here...

i juz went up the bus.. though i know it was the corect bus.. i was reali doubting myself if i hav reali looked at the number correctly.... considering all my tiredess n stuffs, even more i think tt perhaps i've made a mistake.... along the way was a lot of unfamilar places, signs, houses n buildings... of cos.... more n more of "worries" came to me.... calling out to me.. haunting mi... despite all tt.. i refused to check out wif de driver or other ppl ard me... shy..? awkward?? too lazy???

for all the mixed feelings i've gone thru during the short period of time in the bus... doesnt it reflects on some of human's flaws tt happens all the time???

recalling how excited i was when i noe tt i m on the right bus... going the right way... i know tt i haf worried for nothing.. cos in the end, it was a fantastic ending... a wonderful start at the same time.. cos i m on another new journey on mrt back to woodlands...

yes... no doubt, in the end, still a blessed ending... but, wldnt it b better if i am more certain, mmore confident abt that path???

yes.. i'll try next time ... (when i go to east coast again i guess)

2005-04-01T18:38:00.000-08:00

oh yahx.. aprils fool.. they think it's funny huhx...
it reali scare the wits outta mi wen i received a msg frm ye lian... dat jimmy's or his duno -who died in an accident or sumtinkx.. i was totally shocked n stuffs.. check things out wif tommy n stuffs... den ye lian told mi tt stupid jimmy played tis joke on her... i'm like.. HelLO!!!! is there a nid to or nort???? sucha a "fantastic" "cool" "real" joke .... it "dint" make mi goes screaming... yah.. DINT...

after hanging out wif frens at Lot1... went back to sch for make up Econs lecture... b4 dat... we all took neoprints... was with *Pris* *Janice* *Nicole* *Debra* *Don* *Vip* n *alvin* we like so retarded .... staring at the machine n *smile* hahahx... den wen decorating the pics... i v ji xiao.. go put a duck mouth or sumtink lidat at *alvin's* mouth.. so bad rit... but nvm.. tink he nv blame mi 1.... hahaha...

after dat.. onli mi vip n don went back for make up lesson lor... we were late *oops*.... den tt don still go toilet shit some more... haha... the lecture was ok.. juz tt the last part i dint catch a thing lor... it was cheem for mi... n... hmm... hope sum1 b tt angel 2 explain the entire ting to mi again...

halfway thru the lecture... i was sms-ing him.... n i received a super shocking news.... details, i shall nt reveal ... since its april fool.. i reali cant tell if its a joke or nort.. it was seriously serious.... n i'm like reali lost n stuffs.. till now.. man.. i still duno if it's true or nort.. it's like.... wad if it's reali real.. it wld b reali bad to doubt tt sum1 for things as bad as tis to happen.. oh no.... how i wish it wld rather b a joke...

jit tao after tt sms.. i cldnt even smile properly... i was totally moodless.. it's like super sad...
scallop saw mi n was like.. "hey.. y u so sian... sianness sld b contagious u knoe" i mean.. i know lahx.. but.. cldnt help it lah.. den he v bad.. sms mi during his history lecture....

gooddness.. hope it reali wldnt b tt bad yah....

2005-03-31T20:40:00.000-08:00

God : angels, do you know what i was just thinking about ?

Angels : what were you thinking about ?

God : all the Christians seem to have forgotten what kind of power they have available & the devil keeps on deceiving them !

Angels : God, what exactly are you driving at ?

GOD: I have made my children in such a way that when the people of the world is sitting, they would be standing, when the world is standing, they will stand out, when the world stands out, my children must be outstanding and when the devil dares the world to be outstanding, my people will be the standards to be used !

JESUS CHRIST: They (Christians) are also forgetting the words in Ephesians 1:3.

GOD: Please read it out!

ANGEL: PRAISE BE TO THE GOD AND FATHER OF OUR LORD JESUS CHRIST WHO HAS BLESSED US IN THE HEAVENLY PLACES WITH EVERY SPIRITUAL BLESSING IN CHRIST.

ANGEL: So what do we do now since the end is almost near?

HOLY SPIRIT: My Presence is still among men and I will teach and remind the Christians of all that we have discussed. I will also make sure that they pass this message on!

JESUS CHRIST: I will also keep on interceding for them and stand in for them even in their weaknesses.

GOD: I will also make sure that I give to all those who ask of me, seek me and try to find me. The blessings I have promised them through my son Jesus Christ will be delivered to all those who discover that I, Jehovah, I am ready to bless them! Not because of any special things that they have done, but just because I LOVE THEM!

JESUS CHRIST: I will also give all my followers who are willing to pass this conversation on, enough strength to carry on!

ANGELS: We are all backing THE TRINITY and even the devil cannot stop us! How funny! Christians are finally taking over and .......

DEVIL (eavesdropping behind the gates): I hope you all heard! I will deploy more troops(demons) and make sure the Christians pray less, read their Bibles less, preach less and make sure this mail does not move anywhere! Also.....

YOU SURE HEARD THAT! THE DEVIL WILL MAKE SURE YOU DO NOT PASS THIS ON BUT PROVE HIM WRONG AND SHOW HIM THE POWER YOU HAVE IN CHRIST JESUS AS A CHRISTIAN. PRAY MORE, STUDY THE WORD MORE AND PREACH THE WORD! DO NOT DISAPPOINT GOD ! PASS IT ON

2005-03-31T20:35:00.000-08:00

aRghX.... i'm like super duper angri nw lor...!!!! reached hme juz now.. den mama wans mi to work!!!! its like.. wad the... ... ... ... i nv seen a jc student work b4 lorx.... sat n sun... morning till afternoon.. den when wll b my own study time???? revision time??? church time??? leisure time n stuffs.. i nid 2 haf a life lor.... man!!! its like reali crap.... den she starts 2 compare mi n my sis.... sae tt my sis stops taking money from her since poly..... n stuffs... but Jc is diff wad.... haiyax.. nth 2 sae man.... work aniwhere nvm.. 7-eleven sumore... haiya.. if it's her wish... wad can i do.. jolly well obey lor....

aniwae... guess God has His plans lahx... if it's reali gonna b tt way... let it be??? who noes in the end it'll b a greater testimony.... bcos of the fantastic results i gonna have yahx???? leave it to God ler!!!

aniwae.... went movie wif xavier juz now... haha.. watch BE COOL.. tt show ar.. i think reali canot make it.. i dun like... not nice ... as in.. nt as nice as it SEEMS to be... but.. storyline still nt bad lahx.. xavier was like damn blur lor... watch halfway den sae he dun understand... den i was reali like.... DIAO... hahha....

2dae lectures n lectures again... Econs was reali "coool" so mani chim terms... but nvm.. catching up catching up... =p went for Gp lecture 2dae... tt teacher reali scare the wits out of us lor.. he was like tellin us how difficult GP was.... den was like.. MY GOODNESS!!! and we all reali freaks out.....

and thru out all this lessons n stuffs.... after freakin out n stuffs... i hear myself prayin... i noe tt as long i stay i Him, placed my trust in Him.. hope in Him n reali commit every single tink into His mighty hands, He's gonna put everyting in place for mi!!! i believe in Him.. n i guess tt's the most impt alr..

My GOD, the One n Only Mighty King of my life is One who guides and paths my life....
I'm ready to alllow Him to work in my life... Love u, God...

2005-03-30T17:01:00.000-08:00

Oh yahx.. another day.. =p hmmm... 2dae attended sch for lectures... no more orientation... hahaha.... literature was v fun... the teacher was good... he made de lesson v interesting wif jookes n stuffs... haha... den he scolded *some1* but jokingly de lahx... den *tt some1* was like so blur lidat 1 lor... hahaha....

den was geo... waaahx.. de teacher was like going on an aeroplane or sumtink.. he spoke so fast... FAST N FURIOUS!... we can barely catch up wif him lor... thank God i took pure geo.. if nort i dun tink i will understand a single thing he said.... at least i still can take down some notes.. he dint start wif an intro or wadsover... juz throw us wif sum pictures of floods, den cause of floods n stuffs.... i guess juz go read myy sec 4 notes better.. clearer n more detailed... dun even noe if its supposed 2 b a case study or wad.. straight away faint wor...

den.. it was a lecture on project work.... de teacher oso goes full blast.. screen notes on the powerpoint.. we r suppose 2 copy the notes... n yet, she goes so fast lor.... dint haf a chance to copied everitink down.. wah... pioneer teachers ... duno wad's wif dem! yahx.. but nvm... will jia you... pray tt things will b better n better? =p

assembly.... Mr Yeo, my Lit teacher as well... gave a tok.. i find it quite motivational... n v useful. for the tips for studyin n stuffs.. his 'topic' was, The survival manual for surviving in JC i find it v funni lor... den his talk oso v interesting 1.... he quoted : " YOu cannot choose wad u like... but u can like wad u choose...." true huhx... =p

Cca open hse oso... duno wad to join... den sign up for badminton, Outdoor activities n Student council.. haha.. anyhow lahx.. lolx.. go for selection den c how lor... =p

go review my notes n lecture notes for 2ml ler... cya... =p

2005-03-29T21:55:00.000-08:00

hmm.. 2dae reali reali reali v exciting n fun lor! hahah.. i guess i reali enojoyed myself alot.... its the best day out of the 4 orientation day... .... .....

the beginning of the day was still ok lahx.. nt bad.. but not good either.. still bored n sianx at the games n stuffs... but after dat wen we haf mass dance... n the final finale...... all of us reali scream n shout n cheer n dance like so 1's business lor... den we all played n played n played n played... hahahx....

den oso oso, made a lot of new frens.. the 4 of us, me, janice, pris n debra was like kip talking among ourselves.... reali thank God for these frens.. if nort, sure will sianz! hahaha

SURPRISE!!! 1 of the pioneers even stayed at woodlands! near my hsex.. yea yea.. name: scallop... dun tink its the correct spelling n prounounciation.. but.. nvm.. tink he wun scold 1... haha... he's a christian osO!... so cool... next time gt 1 more bro to help mi pray ler... =p

best tink best tink!!! my clan.. ATHENS won the champion clan! aint we gr8??? hahaha.. fantastic... guess i reali enjoyed myself a lot....

for, This is the day that the Lord had made... I had indeed rejoiced n b glad in it!!!

2005-03-28T22:26:00.000-08:00

orientation day today..... kinda tired... knew a lot of other new friends...nt bad lahx... quite friendly also.. guess will haf a fantastic time wif them 4 the next 2 yrs.. or rather 1 1/2 yrs or so.... hahha.... =p

danced lots of dances today.... played lots of games, sang lots of songs and cheered lots of cheers.. initially was realli.. BORING! but during the games, it was reali fun.. as in.. all of us reali excited 2 win the games n stuffs, den we reali pia n shout n cheer n sing n wadever..... hahha.... kinda exciting also....

2ml another roundd!... hmm mmm..... hope it will b fantastic as wellL!!! God bless mE!

2005-03-27T18:10:00.000-08:00

wAhx .. not bad... still experiencing the 'high' moments ... cos so long nv online ler.. hehex... 2dae is service day... also, Easter Day... the day where God is resurrected from the grave... hmm.. once again... it reminded mi of God's victory over satan... wif juz 2 sticks... (the cross) i was once again reminded tt.... i shldnt even fear of anitink.. cos God has gain victory over every single thing... n yes... by faith, i'm victorious.. =p

wonderful.... got my vocal lesson.... talked abt grp singing today.... looking forward to the day where i can 'perform' or rather serve God ... =p so excited.. has been long since i performed on stage... hahahx...

later papa, bro n aunt coming back frm msia ler.. =p den alot of aunties n uncles comin over to my hse 2 have dinner.. hope 2 haf a pleasant n blessed time...

meanwhile, i wan to kip remindin myself tt.... .... ....
I am blessed
I am chosen
I am adopted
I am redeemed
I am forgiven
I am sealed
I am guaranteed..

And.. i am a Saint

2005-03-26T23:17:00.000-08:00

hAhaZ.... my dEar frenszzz... are u all expecting my come backx??? lolx... yes!!! i'm back here.. blogging... happi leh.. thanks 2 my sister n her bf.. my computer alritx liaox... can use internet liaox... hmmmm.... its like 4 mths dint blog alr lor... den cum online jit tao everi1 machium c ghost lidat... wah man.... cool leh.. hahha... den i oso v funni de... even forget tis password.. dat password... in the end muz re type n re type everitink again.. but thank God.... v gud.. nw can online ler.... no1 will complain i nv blog ler.. no1 will complain tis n tt alr... gud gud gud ar....

hahhaha.... *power*

2004-11-23T10:12:00.000-08:00

alritx man... o's levels finally done! juz ard 25 hrs ago... lolx... hmmm... ydae v shiok lehx.. straight awae after our exams.. the 5 of uS... *p y* *sHy* * C y* *kRin* *mE* wEnt shOpPiNG!!!!!! hEhEhx.... wEnt lOok foR pROm stUffffffs!!!!! haS bEEn v v v v lOng.. cant rmb wen's the last time the 5 of us went out together? we were tokin non -stop abt everitink ...as in everi single tink under the sun lor.. hahahahha..... realli enjoyed ourselves a lot a lot lehx....

after tt go iwan's hse... lolx.. go c her sis's dresssssses... den took 1 hm... lolx!

hahahha!!!!.... the guessssss wad!
mi n shy took the wrong bus home!!! 855 supposedly to yishun de.. den guess we ended up???? HARBOURFRONT!!! 'sure' no joke lehx... actuali mi fault lahx... dint check properly.. but tt iwan oso damn pro... took wrong bus he oso dint noe.. his hse sumore leh.. pro ler lah him.. lolx... best tink is.. wen we board the bus... both of us jit tao SLEEP! ahhaha.. cos we realli v tired ler... so straight away dozed off lor... lolx.. both of us still blur.. c the bus goin past changi airport / ECP... still machium bo chapx.... haha.. cool lehx.. den bo bian.. frm hF take bus hm again lor.. jit tao shagged ler.. both of us... hahaha... laughin awae at our silliness all the way man... n of cos!!! we dozed off halfway again! cos reali reali reali reali v v v v tired... hahhhahax... but thank God.. this time we reached our destination successsfulyy... haha.. thank God man! thank God i'm nt alone... gt shy pei mi... hehehe...

hahaha... yes!!! lookin forward to the prom nite soo much sooo much.. its onli 2 more days away... ahhaha... v v v hapi leh....... dyin my hair later.. accesories all these settle liaox.. hmm... cool cool cool... =p lol.....

mi n shy oso decided to sign up for Volunteer Instructor Programme liaox.. cos we feel tt we cant part frm RCY! ahhaha.. suppposedly i dun wan go de... but thank God... *sumtink* made mi made my decision.. ahhaha.. wheW!!! lolx....

alritx.. 2dae will slack at hm.. cos i'm realli tired.. hahaha... slack at hm.. having my *personal* time.. clearin up the mess in my room... clearin my wardrobe n stuffs.. hehehehe...

2004-11-18T01:13:00.000-08:00

mmm mmm mmm... Finally Finally.. this whole o levels thingy is Finally COMING to an end!!! haha.. i'm left wif onli pHy/chEm MCQ!!! on tues.. which is lyk 5 days or so away lor.. much more relaxed ler.. felt tt its finished n done with!!! i'm freed!! woo hoo~~~~ can u feel the joy i'm having.. its realli too much lor... finally the suffering ... stayin till late nights to study... slp oso cant slp well... eat oso nv eat well.. the worryin n spottin of qns!!! HEY! all gone man...

for the past 3 wks.. its realli hell lor.. canot make it man.... jit tao is can slp lesssss den 3 hr 1 dae 1 lor.... reali nt gud.. can c my eye bag liaox.. sad!!! mux start puttin mask... facial.. all tis liaox.. wahahhaha...

wahaha... started to enjoy myself 2dae ABIT lahx.. lolx.. went out wif *bAolIng* *iWan* *jUNpiNG* straight away after my gEo n fNn paper todayx.. wahx.. i seriously.. sincerely... realli... enjoyed myself damn much 2dae lor... hahahaha... 1stly.. of cos... much more relaxed mood.. 2ndly.. wen we all together.. reali v fun sehx..

went shopping in town 2dae.. for *Someone's* present lahx.. lolx.. den we go makan dinner!!! den we played pool!!!.. den we walked.. or rather strollled ard Orchard Road aimlesssly... lolx.. frm Cine to TaKa.. to Borders.. to Shaw.. to Fareast.. to Mandarin Hotel.. n back to MRt station again.. nt bad lehx..!!!

lolx.. wahx.. has been so ooo oooo ooooo long since i reached home late liaox.. has been so long since i slowly strolled in town.. has beeen sooooo long since i last touched the pool table.. has been soooo long.. sooo long....

but wad the heck! its ALMOST over.. n i am realli goin to enjoy myself all the way lor.. trust me man.. nt gonna let anitink affect tis esctatic..... c'mon.. its party time!!! heheehex...

hmm.. tokin abt party... prom nite comin liaox.. wahx... cool leh.. sure will enjoy 1.. 25th nOv.. lookin forward to it sehx.. lolx...

haha... yes!!! been so long since i blog.. n has been so long i came online in the middle of da nite.. wahx....... v v v v happi..

Buffet wif Chongster n Cindersheep awaits me.... sports everywhere awaits me.. shopin..eating.. slping ... wahx.. here i come liaox.. hehehehex..

God's boxes

2004-11-04T11:47:00.000-08:00

God's Boxes
I have in my hands two boxes, Which God gave me to hold.
He said, "Put all your sorrows in the black box, And all your joys in the gold."

I heeded His words, and in the two boxes, Both my joys and sorrows I stored
But though the gold became heavier each day, The black was as light as before.
With curiosity, I opened the black, I wanted to find out why

And I saw, in the base of the box, a hole,Which my sorrows had fallen out by.
I showed the hole to God, and mused, "I wonder where my sorrows could be!"
He smiled a gentle smile and said, "My child, they're all here with me."
I asked God, why He gave me the boxes, Why the gold and the black with the hole?"
My child, the gold is for you to count your blessings, The black is for you to let go."

Out oF milK

2004-11-04T11:35:00.000-08:00

*Everyday I'm confronted with issues that I need to step back and say,
"God is good... all the time... and He's bigger than any problem I have".

Enjoy!
This will give you chills....Just remember,
"Our God is an Awesome God!"

A young man had been to Wed. night Bible study. The pastor had shared about listening to God and obeying The Lord's voice. The young man couldn't help but wonder, "Does God still speak to people?"
After service, he went out with some friends for coffee and pie and they discussed the message. Several different ones talked about how God had led them in different ways. It was about ten o'clock when the young man started driving home.

Sitting in his car, he just began to pray, "God...If you still speak to people speak to me. I will listen. I will do my best to obey."
As he drove down the main street of his town, he had the strangest thought to stop and buy a Gallon of milk. He shook his head and said out loud, "God is that you?"
He didn't get a reply and started on toward home. Again, the thought, buy a gallon of milk. The young man thought about Samuel and how he didn't recognize the voice of God, and how little Samuel ran to Eli. "Okay, God, in case that is you, I will buy the milk."

It didn't seem like too hard a test of obedience. He could always use the milk. He stopped and purchased the gallon of milk and started off toward home.

As he passed Seventh Street, he again felt the urge, "Turn down that street." This is crazy he thought and drove on past the intersection."

Again, he felt that he should turn down Seventh Street. At the next intersection, he turned back and headed down Seventh, half jokingly, he said out loud, "Okay, God I will."
He drove several blocks, when suddenly, he felt like he should stop. He pulled over to the curb and looked around.

He was in a semi-commercial area of town. It wasn't the best but it wasn't the worst of neighborhoods either. The businesses were closed and most of the houses looked dark like the people were already in bed.

Again, he sensed something, "Go and give the milk to the people in the house across the street." The young man looked at the house.

It was dark and it looked like the people were either gone or they were already asleep. He started to open the door and then sat back in the car seat. "Lord, this is insane. Those people are asleep and if I wake them up, they are going to be mad and I will look stupid." Again, he felt like he should go and give them the milk.

Finally, he opened the door. "Okay God, if this is you, I will go to the door and I will give them the milk. If you want me to look like a crazy person, okay. I want to be obedient. I guess that will count for something but if they don't answer right away, I am out of here.

He walked across the street and rang the bell. He could hear some noise inside. A man's voice yelled out, "Who is it? What do you want?" Then the door opened before the young man could get away.

The man was standing there in his jeans and a t-shirt. He looked like he just got out of bed. He had a strange look on his face and he didn't seem too happy to have a stranger standing on his doorstep. "What is it?" The young man thrust out the gallon of milk.

"Here I brought this to you." The man took the milk and rushed down the hallway, speaking loudly. Then from down the hall came a woman carrying the milk toward the kitchen. The man was following her holding a baby. The baby was crying. The man had tears streaming down
his face.

The man began speaking and half-crying, "We were just praying. We had some big bills this month and we ran out of money. We didn't have any milk for our baby. I was just praying and asking God to show me how to get some milk." His wife in the kitchen yelled out, "I asked
him to send an Angel with some milk. Are you an Angel?"

The young man reached into his wallet and pulled out all the money he had on him and put it in the man's hand. He turned and walked back toward his car and the tears were streaming down his face. He knew that God still answers prayers.

"Stop telling God how big your storm is. Instead, tell the
storm how big your God is!"

Share this great story with others....

GOD BLESS YOU!!!

exAms

2004-11-04T11:21:00.000-08:00

wahx.. gues wad... it has realli been 1 mth since i last blogged man.. lolx... exams lorx.. duhx.. No.. exams not over yet.. but juz nid 2 chill myself a bit lor... if nort... nv go mad is fade de....

i realli wan exams to b over soon!!! i realli wan!!! tis is too much ler... lolx... cant take it worx... stress stress n more of stresses!!! haiya.. besides tt.. of cos still gort THINK of other stuffs lor... but.. i guess i'll b alritx de lahx..

the last sunday.. went to church .. n God ask mi to stop digging sad stuffs n look at it lerx... look at my strengths.. nt my weakness... God doesnt look at these tinks... n i shouldnt too.. i shldnt b sad man!!! yahx.. admit! i haf been DIGGING reali sad stuffs n think abt it lahx.. but.. oso nt i wan one mahx.. haiyo... at leasst nw i try 2 stop thinkin ler lor... whole mind is study study n study ler... i LOVE studyin man!!! ***fake???*** lolx...

whaox... exams exams exams... i'm left wif 7 more papers......... 18 more days to happy hoursssssssssssssssss lolx.... kip mi in ur prayers!!!

so far... the papers... hasnt been quite good for most of the papers lor...
Phy- very confident in section A.. but section... C.M.I. (canot make it)
Eng- Paper 2.. v gud.. paper 1... DEAD.... i'm out of point lorx!
Maths.. paper 1... v gud lor... feel v gud.. paper 2... hope it will ok lor.. cos haben take mahx...
Social studies- i'm racing against time thruout the paper lor....in the end no time finish 1 essay qns lor... but source based qns.. nt bad lo.... wif so mani pract.. if still C.M.I den realli can go bang wall ler lahx...

haiya!! pls b over soon.. den i make sure i will b a v happi gurl ler.. of cos lahx.. hu wun b??? lolx... God bless everi1....

2004-10-10T18:59:00.000-07:00

wahx.. 2dae church dae.. ahha.. v fun.. as usual.. hehe.. celebr8ted ben ben's n iwan's bdae.. supposedly to gif dem a surprise.. but.. tt surprise machium nt lyk surprise.. so skanked! lolx.. den... went to town to buy birthday prezzie.. wahx.. reach hm jit tao shag leh... lolx.. v tired lor... perhaps too long nv go shopping ler.. suddenly shoppin nt xi guan.. haha.. study mah... wee oh wee.. nt bad uhx? haha.. no lah.. excuse onli lah... haixyo.. sian tiao.. 2ml a sch day again.. gonna go back 2 sch n c tt countdown board again... tink its almost onli 20 days to o levels ler.. how fast....

2004-10-10T18:51:00.000-07:00

i realli love tis song lor... simply jux love it soo sooo much... haha...

hey now hey now....
have you eva seen sucha beautiful night
i could almost kiss the starsthey're shining so bright
when i see you smile i go oh oh oh
i would neva wanna miss this
cause in my heart i know what this is

hey now hey now
this is what dreams are made of
hey now hey now
this is what dreams.... are made of
i've got somewhere i belong
i've got somebody to love
this is what dreams are made of

have u eva wondered what life is about
u cld search the world and neva figure it out
u dont have to sail the oceans no no no
happiness is no mystery
its here and now its u n me (yeahh)

hey now hey now
this is what dreams are made of
hey now hey now
this is what dreams are made of
i've got somewhere i belong
i've got somebody to love
this is what dreams are made of

open your eyes
(this is what dreams are made of)
shout to the sky
(this is what dreams are made of)
when i see u smile i go oh oh oh
yesterday my life was duller and now everythings techinaler

hey now hey now
this is what dreams are made of
hey now hey now
this is what dreams are made of
i've got somewhere i belong
i've got somebody to love
this is what dreams, dreams,
this is what dreams are made of

hey now hey hey hey hey hey now hey hey hey
this is what dreams
hey hey hey
what dreams are made of now.

2004-10-09T22:48:00.000-07:00

wahx.. 2dae kinda gud day lor.. hmm.. in the afternoon went wif bao ling to study at 888 de mac.. wahx... nt bad.. coincedentally horx, c ying sheng n frens lor... hahaa.. den study wif dem lor... gort me... bao ling... yingsheng.. haojie...edwin n jian wei lor.. if i am nort wrong lah.. den ... oso gt adrian n shiyin hu comes to join us later.. haha.. study wif dem v fun lo... gt tok lah.. but still gt study de... hahaha.... guaix de horx... lol... too bad.. kip kena 'skank' 2dae sia.. sian tiao... lolx...

haha.. went home... hungrily... lookin 4wad to dinner... reached hm.. smelled nth.. n mama sae 'let's go n eat kfc' wahaha.. jit tao high.... lookin at the mirror n my size... haiya... suan ler lah.. eat jiu eat!!! since so long nv eat kentucky liaox.. moreover nw is mama's treat... hahaha... den after tt go shopping wif mama.. haha.. guess wad???? shoppin at 888 NTUC... hahha... altho onli NTUC, but dun play play ok...while mama n papa shoppin, mi n my bro playin wif each other... makin a fool outta ourselvves in the public.. damn jia lat leh.. lolx... kip BANGING each other wif our butts.. ahhaha... den mi n mi mama down there 38(san ba) abt ice creams!!! hahha.. v fun wor... lolx....

2ml's Sabbath!!! goin church.. ahhaa.. v v v happi leh.. entering God's santuary.. of cos feel gud.. haha.. hopes all my prayers will b answered soon! God Bless u.... =p

2004-10-08T22:50:00.000-07:00

wAHx... 2dae went disclepleship.. v fun nehx.. we sorta lyk celebr8ted iwan's bdae wif a breadtalk cake n mushi moshi... sum ice cream balls... hehe.. v fun wor.. lol... ydae nite.. ard 1130 called iwan... haha... i am the last to wish him happy birthday leh! nt bad ar! lolx.. supposedly can b on the dot.. 12 am de... but too bad.. gonna dozed off ler.. kip stuyin wad... guaix neh.. alritx... tis is life... wif God.. wif books.. wif frens... nv will let other tinks affect me.. haha... of cos.. to find out tt yuan lai i have been cheated all along isnt sumtink 2 b v happi abt.. but.. nt gonna let it affect me lor.. ahha.. wad the hell lor... yuan lai for the 2 weeks and 1 day... wad u were sayin.. wad u were askin.. all shit! haha.... suan ler... its ur life.. n let God handle it bahx.... hmPhx....

2004-10-08T22:14:00.000-07:00

1 Corinthians 13:4-7

Love is patient, love is kind.

It does not envy, it does not boast.

It is not proud.

It is not rude, it is not self-seeking.

It is not easily angered,It keeps no record of wrongs.

Love does not delight in evil,But rejoices with the truth.

It always protects, always trust,Always hopes, always perserveres.

2004-10-05T20:51:00.000-07:00

An atheist professor of philosophy speaks to his class on the problem science has with God, The Almighty.
He asks one of his new students to stand and.....

Professor: You are a devotee and a follower of your religion, aren't you?
Student : Yes, sir.
Prof: So you believe in God?
Student : Absolutely, sir.
Prof: Is God good?
Student : Sure.
Prof: Is God all-powerful?
Student : Yes.
Prof: My brother died of cancer even though he prayed to God to heal him. Most of us would attempt to help others who are ill. But God didn't. How is this God good then? Hmm?
(Student is silent.)
Prof: You can't answer, can you? Let's start again, young fellow.Is God good?
Student :Yes.
Prof: Is Satan good?
Student : No.
Prof: Where does Satan come from?
Student : From...God...
Prof: That's right. Tell me son, is there evil in this world?
Student : Yes.
Prof: Evil is everywhere, isn't it? And God did make everything. Correct?
Student : Yes.
Prof: So who created evil?
(Student does not answer.)
Prof: Is there sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible things exist in the world, don't they?
Student :Yes, sir.
Prof: So, who created them?
(Student has no answer.)
Prof: Science says you have 5 senses you use to identify and observe the world around you. Tell me, son...Have you ever seen God?
Student: No, sir.
Prof: Tell us if you have ever heard your God?
Student : No , sir.
Prof: Have you ever felt your God, tasted your God, smelt your God? Have you ever had any sensory perception of God for that matter?
Student : No, sir. I'm afraid I haven't.
Prof: Yet you still believe in Him?
Student : Yes.
Prof: According to empirical, testable, demonstrable protocol, science says your GOD doesn't exist. What do you say to that, son?
Student : Nothing. I only have my faith.
Prof: Yes. Faith. And that is the problem science has.
Student : Professor, is there such a thing as heat?
Prof: Yes.
Student : And is there such a thing as cold?
Prof: Yes.
Student : No sir. There isn't.
(The lecture theatre becomes very quiet with this turn of events.)
Student : Sir, you can have lots of heat, even more heat, superheat, mega heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat.But we don't have anything called cold. We can hit 458 degrees below zero which is no heat, but we can't go any further after that. There is no such thing as cold. Cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of heat. We cannot measure cold. Heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the absence of it.
(There is pin-drop silence in the lecture theatre.)
Student : What about darkness, Professor? Is there such a thing as darkness?
Prof: Yes. What is night if there isn't darkness?
Student : You're wrong again, sir. Darkness is the absence of something. You can have low light, normal light,bright light, flashing light....But if you have no light constantly, you have nothing and it's called darkness, isn't it? In reality, darkness isn't. If it were you would be able to make darkness darker, wouldn't you?
Prof: So what is the point you are making, young man?
Student : Sir, my point is your philosophical premise is flawed.
Prof: Flawed? Can you explain how?
Student : Sir, you are working on the premise of duality. You argue there is life and then there is death, a good God and a bad God. You are viewing the concept of God as something finite, something we can measure.Sir, science can't even explain a thought. It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one. To view death as the opposite of life is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive thing. Death is not the opposite of life: just the absence of it. Now tell me, Professor. Do you teach your students that they evolved from a monkey?
Prof: If you are referring to the natural evolutionary process, yes, of course, I do.
Student: Have you ever observed evolution with your own eyes,sir?
(The Professor shakes his head with a smile, beginning to realize where the argument is going.)
Student: Since no one has ever observed the process of evolution at work and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavour, are you not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you not a scientist but a preacher?
(The class is in uproar.)
Student: Is there anyone in the class who has ever seen the Professor's brain?
(The class breaks out into laughter.)
Student : Is there anyone here who has ever heard the Professor's brain, felt it, touched or smelt it?.....No one appears to have done so. So, according to the established rules of empirical, stable, demonstrable protocol, science says that you have no brain, sir. With all due respect, sir, how do we then trust your lectures, sir?
(The room is silent. The professor stares at the student, his face unfathomable.)
Prof: I guess you'll have to take them on faith, son.
Student : That is it sir.. The link between man & God is FAITH. That is all that keeps things moving & alive...

cOol story isnt it... true isnt it? its exactly the way how i feel it as well.. hope it touches u, the same way it touches me... =p

2004-10-03T01:01:00.000-07:00

Dear Diary,
They told me that I was the ugliest thing they'd ever seen, and i started to cry.
I went home and Jake called me. I thought the day would get better.
But he told me that long distance relationships dont work out.
He lived in California, and I moved to Michigan.
Then I told him I loved him and that I missed him.
He told me that the only reason he ever went out with me was because
I was a joke, and he was dared to.
Then he dumped me.
We were going out for two and a half years!

November 9,1999

Today got a little better.
I miss jake so much you dont even know diary!!!!
But he even changed his number so I wouldn't call him.
But the most hottest guy at school asked me to the dance!
And those prissy girls that said im ugly let me hang out with them at lunch today.
It was cool!!

November 10,1999

I'm crying right now... turns out that hot guy was a jerk at the
dance he poured his punch on me, and those girls ripped my dress and everyone started laughing.
Then my grandma told me today that mom and dad got in a little car accident today at work.
They're in critical condition, they might die.
I can't write anymore.

November 11, 1999

Todays a saturday... but me and grandma were at the hospital all night long.
Dad died this morning.
Mom is going to live, but she's crippled for her life.
I wanna die too. while we were at the hospital grandma found out
that she had cancer in her stomach.
She has to go on chemo-therapy.
I cant believe daddy died.
I'm crying more then I have my whole life.
I'm in shock.
I cant write...I'm too tired.
I need sleep.

November 12

Daddy is not dead!
He can't be!
Its all a dream.
My life is perfect.
Jake still loves me.
I can barely write.
I'm crying too much.
I wanna die.
Take me.
Bye...
*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*

One day later, Lisa was found dead in her basement.
She had hung herself with a yellow rope.
I am her mother.
My name is Maranda Gonzalez.
The reason I wrote this e-mail to all of you, is because no one else deserves
what my daughter had.

Please remember that everyone needs love.

Everyone needs a hug everyday.

No one should be made fun of, or insulted.
No one deserves to die like Lisa did.

All of you please dont be the popular prissy girls that put other people down to make themselves feel better!

Please dont be the awful posessed date for the dance that makes people cry.

Now please do me the honor of sending this to as many people as you can think of.
So that way everyone will know not to be a jerk.

2004-10-03T00:57:00.000-07:00

wahahha.. canot believe it man... i tink i realli enjoyed myself a lot 2dae.. hehe
its youth service..english serive.. bread of life lauching its 1st.. 2dae.. was greatly pleased wif it lor.. thou a bit sad.. cos sum1 i expect to turn up..dint turn up..but overall... cool sia.. hehex...

cried soo much 2dae... was reallyy angry wif the 2pid devil lor..tt idiot created so much trouble.. in this church.. hais... den cried a lot 2dae.. cos while worshippin..while praying..realli felt God's touch...was v sad for the past few days.. but realli great to feel comforted by the Lord.. hope he will heal tis relationship.. n greatly greatly bless mi!

haha.. after dat took a lot of fotos wif iwan's hp.. v cool wor.. we all v happi.. gr8 2 noe tt owen n gred enjoy their day as well... thank God leh! for everitink... we will b in the victory at the end man.. satan...watch out!

happi till cant slp ler.. all the best to my life... Thank God for being wif me... Hallelujah!

hmm.. anyway.. been v fantasixe by this song.. What Dreams are Made oF! nice song.. here is the 1st part of the lyrics...
Have you ever seen such a beautiful night...
I could almost Kiss the stars they are shining so bright...
Evrytime i c u i go.. Oh Oh oH
i would neva wanna miss tis
Cos in my heart i noe wad tis is...

cool rit? hahaha... i tink adrian painstakingly gt tis lyrics 4 mi de leh.. mai xiao siao wor.. lols...

2004-09-29T13:48:00.000-07:00

i'm sorry...... v v v sorry......

My Lawyer

2004-09-29T13:33:00.000-07:00

My Lawyer

After living a "decent" life, my time on earth came to an end. The first thing I remember is sitting on a bench in the waiting room of what I thought to be a court house.

The doors opened and I was instructed to come in and have a seat by the defense table. As I looked around I saw the "prosecutor." He was a villainous looking gent who snarled as he stared at me. He definitely was the most evil person I have ever seen.

I sat down and looked to my left and there sat my lawyer, a kind and gentle looking man whose appearance seemed familiar to me. The corner door flew open and there appeared the judge in full flowing robes. He commanded an awesome presence as he moved across the room. I couldn't take my eyes off of him.

As he took his seat behind the bench, he said, "Let us begin."

The prosecutor rose and said, "My name is Satan and I am here to show you why this man belongs in hell."

He proceeded to tell of lies that I told, things that I stole, and in the past when I cheated others. Satan told of other horrible perversions that were once in my life and the more he spoke, the further down in my seat I sank. I was so embarrassed that I couldn't look at anyone, even my own lawyer, as the Devil told of sins that even I had completely forgotten
about.

As upset as I was at Satan for telling all these things about me, I was equally upset at my representative who sat there silently not offering any form of defense at all. I know I had been guilty of those things, but I had done some good in my life - couldn't that at least equal out part of the harm I had done."

Satan finished with a fury and said, "This man belongs in hell, he is guilty of all that I have charged and there is not a person who can prove otherwise."

When it was his turn, my lawyer first asked if he might approach the bench. The judge allowed this over the strong objection of Satan, and beckoned him to come forward.

As he got up and started walking, I was able to see him in his full splendor and majesty. I realized why he seemed so familiar. This was Jesus representing me, my Lord and my Savior. He stopped at the bench and softly said to the judge, "Hi Dad," and then he turned to address the court.

"Satan was correct in saying that this man had sinned, I won't deny any of
these allegations. And yes the wages of sin is death, and this man
deserves to be punished."

Jesus took a deep breath and turned to his Father with outstretched arms and proclaimed, "However, I died on the cross so that this person might have eternal life and he has accepted me as his Savior, so he is mine."

My Lord continued with, "His name is written in the book of life and no one can snatch him from me. Satan still does not understand yet. This man is not to be given justice, but rather mercy."

As Jesus sat down, he quietly paused, looked at his Father and replied,
"There is nothing else that needs to be done. I've done it all."

The judge lifted his mighty hand and slammed the gavel down. The following words bellowed from his lips..."This man is free. The penalty for him has already been paid in full. Case dismissed."

As my Lord led me away, I could hear Satan ranting and raving, "I won't give up, I'll win the next one."

I asked Jesus as he gave me my instructions where to go next, "Have you ever lost a case?"

Christ lovingly smiled and said, "Everyone that has come to me and asked me to represent them has received the same verdict as you, Paid in Full."

2004-09-27T14:41:00.000-07:00

juz saw her blog... didnt wan to blog de. but juz no where for me to rely ler... perhaps u will c tis.. perhaps u wun. but.. yah.. dun care ler.. think wad u ought to think... i am juz sum1 hu is nth in ur eyes. cos no matter wad i do.. it will always b wrong.. for 16 yrs... frm the day i am born.. till nw.. nth is alwaes rit in ur sight.. i knew tt.. long ago..

tt dae behind tis door... i was initiially studyin.. listened to the quarrel.. listening... n i was crying.. i will nv forget wad u sae... "since i am the 1 tt is not using.. y muz i pay?" i was nt angry... juz damn sad... perhaps u dun mean wad u sae.. but as a third party listening to it.. guess wad will she feels? i was lyk??? wad the hell.. dint use??? think again... buy broadband... my fault lahs? yah.. of cos lah.. everiitnk is my fault frm head to toe wad.. since wen m i right...??? wad is fair? wad is unfair???

fair or unfair? wad is unfair wen the wholeroom is made by ur choice... nt mine... wad is unfair... wen the whole pc computer is ur stuffs n nt mine.. wad is unfair wen i only occupies 1 pathetic draawer out of 4.. wad is unfair wen the whole wardrobe i only take tt bloody small part... wad is unfair... wen the whole wall i onli can paste my stuufs in 1 pathetic corner.. cum to think of it.. did u ever think ?? did u evr try 2 stand in my shoes? there's more... wad is unfair??? wen mama loves bro most.. papa loves u most? where m i??? wad is unfair? wen we go relative hse... hu is the one? btwn u n me... tt win the most favour.. how those ppl reacts???? towards u n me??? how will i feel? think .... think...

if u sae all those stuffs in ur blog.. tt u meant nth in tis hse??? think again... hu realli is worthy of the name... u haf papa hu thinks forever for u.. u haf ah mai.... still nt enuf mehs???

u thought tt u r the onli facing the unjustice.... but u r wrong lor... remember the incident long ago??? i was accused stealing... HER money.. u send mi a message.... i wld nv forget... in the end.. i nv admintted.. continued to b accused.. even till now... nth can change.. dat i am the baddest in the family.. nt u nt others.. Nv ur? isnt tt enuf???

all tis will nt v forgotten... but i tried after becoming a christian..i really think a lot... i was lyk.. juz letting go of everitink... cos i bothers to think ... cos i bothers to stand in tt situation... cos i bothers continue to Love all of u...

u think she wans to react tis way? everi1 makes mistake ... in expressing themselves ... n stuffs... haiya.. suan ler.. duno wad else to sae... perhaps.. all this grievances made.. is juz 2 let u noe... if u think tis is unfair? tis is nt... if u think u r the most unworhty in tis hse.. u r not... the 1 tt is is mE... but i am not doin anytink abt it.. simply bcos i cant do anitink..

for many reasons wad has been goin on in my life.. the whole family shld b responsible.. but i thought tt one Love is the strongest.. nth else bad is goin thru it... but... looks lyk.. tis doesnt seems to b the way...

but wad the heck.. even if everitink falls.. i am still believing it... i am hurt.. i am sad.. i am pissed too... but i am nw silently ggoin thru it all.. Alone...

no one in the family i can depend on.. onli my few trusted frens... n the onli Him in my life.. Only them..

i aAM sIck..

2004-09-26T15:01:00.000-07:00

wHaOz.. sO lOng nO blOg.. goRt sOooO mUch tO sAe...

1stLy... kinda upset wif a lot of tinks lo..... family 1st bahz.... sumtimes was really wondering.. wad i really did wrong... so wrong.. tt causes so much probz lor... so much to take.. instead, its tooo much to b taken in lor... lyk the fatty acid... Saturated ler.... canot take in ... canot react anymore wif other products oredi.... to Continue the reaction to b done...

2nDly.. kip bothering myself wif a lot a lot of sch work.. prelims wad.. den muz kip studying lorz... bo bian mah... but.. v jia lat leh.. study till i am realli ssick sia... jit tao paper till half.. den gt fever.. assk examiner for tissue somemore....... damn paisehs sia.. haha.. but hu cares!!! haha... v cool leh.. God's timing damn zhun... the next day no paper mah... so jit tao can rest! n SLP all the way.. think its due to the irregular sleep bah..tt's y will sick.. so long nv sick ler... damn bu xi guan... lyk funny funny 1.... i Hate to b siCk!!! so weak lidat.. machiumz sissy leh!! hahahha...
but c soooo many ppl guan xin u.... woo hoo~ v sweet wor... lolz...

2dae... v v v v fun.. church funfair!!! hehez... v fun.. but damn dissapointed.. cos a lot of ppl promise they will cum de.. but they nv lor.. haiya... lyk i sae.... Dun Ever Promise Anything To Me... isnt tt true??? haiya.. suan ler lah.. perhaps will xi guan de lor...
wahhahha... nvm... den v fun.. we jit tao v early go.. n set up stalls.. game leh.. v cool n INTERESTING! of cos.. the idea came frm the One N Only UthNiTy hoRs... hehes... den gt bread prepared my vivian.. n coPi... by KriS... fun fun n v fun!! haha... hope ever1 enjoy ler... but hor.. my good n sweet members... jit tao all v gud lor... all take balloons chase mi.. wahz... nth 2 sae... so *childish* hahha... *oopS* but really mah!!! i not scared leh!!! for wad man! lolz.. pls hor.. my dearest member... jiu suan i plead u bah.. DUN DO THAT AGAIN LEH!!!

alrittz... 2ml is PHY! tue iS mAThs N sCi!!! after tt will go YUM CHA wif my frens ler!!! hhahaa.... cos prelims over... wee oh weeeee!!! happi happi... but... bluff myself onli lah.. blink one eye... exam again ler... jia you lor.. wad to do...!! all the best dudes... chill =p

mOndAy

2004-09-20T17:57:00.000-07:00

wAhAHas.. hAs bEEn sOo lOng sincE i juZ blOg lEr woR.. hAha.. goRt oNlinE lAh.. juZ lAxy 2 bLog niA.. moReovEr.. onlinE oSo nt ssAe v lOng.. pPl gUai.. stuDy okAy!!!

wAhAhAhs.. fElt sO nO lifE nWaDayS... wAd's moRe? oNli cAn stUdy woR... hAha.. tRyin hArd 2 gEt sUm othEr tiNks oUttA mOi hEad aS wEll.. tRyin hArd.. fEr bOth mAttEr.. hoOpefUlly wiLl b sUccESsfUl in dE eNd bAhs..

2dAe sS pApEr wOr.. noRt bAd bAh.. cAn wRitE a Lot.. hOpe tiNks gOeS weLL... No mORe Fnn.. no moRe SS.. nO moRe ENG!!! fEw moRe pRelimS pApEr 2 gO.. goNna kiP oN mUggIng hArd...

tiS lifE wiLL b ovEr sOOn dE!! 2 morE mtHs.. o lEvEl ovEr lEr.. cAn pIa.. cAn cHioNg.. wAh.. cAN dO a lot of tinKs lEr siA.. guD guD guD... hAhas....

tUeSdAy

2004-09-08T20:31:00.000-07:00

whao.. juz back frm swiming wif shy wor.. b4 dat she cum study at moi hse... v fun.. lols.. guai leh we 2... ydae oso lidat.. den my mama tell her all my chou shi.. *MAN* den i damn paiseh... haiyo.. hope she dun bastard me.. hahhaa... u ppl dun tink u can go n bribe her oks? lols...

swim till v shiok wor.. den while walking back... mi eating my french fries.. she eatin her maggie mee... gt a few idiotic guys walking behind us... down there whistle sia.. damn cheeky.. but mi n shy bo chap dem lah.. den after dat.. gt a guy sae : "dun shake ur backside".. wah man.. i jit tao v v v angry lor.. damn 2pid lor.. walk walk walk lah.. for wad look at ppl's backside.. den i jit tao turn back n diao dem lor.. reali hate these guys lor... really damn childish lor... angry angry angry!

after dat go hm.. nt tt bad lor... until shy called mi.. her blog.. gt sum1 scold her wor.. sae she sucks all these.. wah man.. i tink tt person oso siao de.. hu oso noe shy wun flirt 1 lor... den dat person.. damn jia lat lor.. lidat sae ppl.. i tink tt SOMEONE is realli a sucker lor.. sae ppppl lidat.. damn guo fen..hope 2 find out hu tt person is.. sure bash him/her upside down... kick tt person into the pond ar..! kaos.. bully shy.. haiyo... hope she will nt b so hurt n sad lor.. let's pray tt the person will b found soon lor...

hais.. i myself.. nt in a good state as well bahs... 2pid mi... go did sumtink.. tt reali hurt him a lot lor.. i tink i realli damn jia lat lor.. shldnt haf told him all those tinks.. but.. i duno bahs.. duno y the hell i did dat... hais... juz simply tellin him the truth.. cause so much prob ler.. perhaps i no brain to tink of the consequences lah.. hais.. suan ler bah.. hope its reali over.. however it gonna b.. i'll nv forgive myself de bah... hope he will b hapier bah.. n find sum1 beta lor.. hais... juz v v v sorry ... feelin v hurt as wel.. 2 b the 1... sayin goodbye lor...hais...

cIndErEllA

2004-09-06T20:25:00.000-07:00

Cinderella's has always been my fav fairytale wors... haha... n yet! 2dae was a dream come true wor... watched the movie with a few frens.. was indeed a v v v v v nice show wor.. hmm.. reali damn sweet.. damn cool.. was tinking.. if such a beautiful story will happen to me.. such fairytale ... so sweet wor.. lols... aniwae.. guess its onli a dream bah.. fairytale will alwaes b a fairytale de lor... hahaha...

well... tragically, sumtink bad happened today.. dun wish to give a detailed illustration abt it.. but ... was v v v bad lor.. hais..

nw... i noe wad is it.. wen ppl ask me wad u wan ur dreamguy to b lyk... in the past, i would juz sae, as long as i love him.. -blahs- but nw.. i realise .. its alwaes more den wad u tink it is... as the saying goes... more then meets the eye... haha... thank God bah.. at least nw i noe... wad is it all abt .. wad it is lyk.. b4 its realli too late lor.. wwheww...

pRo

2004-09-04T11:17:00.000-07:00

oMgoOdneSs!!! gOin baCk mSia iN jUz a WhilE woRs.. lOls... pEepS oUt dErs.. dUn miSs mi tOo mUCh aRs... lOls... wiLL b bAck oN sUn loRs.. hAha.. gO bAck 1 dAe.. cElEbr8 aH mA's bdAe.. lOls... tAkE it aS a sHoRt bReAk bAhs.. cUm bAck, muZ stArt cHiOng-iNg agAin lEr.. wAhahahas...

ydAe eNg pApEr woR... hMm.. oKiE lAhs.. cOmpO.. gr8... thAnk God.. hOpe it wUn oUt oF pOint loR.. BUT... cOmPRe wAs hELL! dAmn jiA lAt woRs... difFicUlt sEh... hAHAhas... kE liAn...

aftEr dAt wEnt kRis hSe fErs diSclEplEshiP.. hahas... mAn siA... gT a pEriOd.. wE pRayEd.. hMm.. kRiS pRay fEr mE... tt pReSssure wiLl b RemOvEd.. n stuFfs.. n dAt i wiLl b MYSELF in fRont oF othErs ... noRt Actin aNothEr pEijUn sO tO lEt othErs aCCpEt mE... tiNk iS God's Word ... sO duN plAy plAy.. hmM.. i aM stiLl thInkKin hArd.. oF tiS tHinGy... sO fAr i stiLL dUno wAd iS boTheRin mE lAhs... bUt .. sIncE iS God's wOrd.. dEn i bEtEr tReaT it sEriOusLy.. Hu noEs? iT mitE sEemS aS a wArnIng..

2004-08-30T12:13:00.000-07:00

hMm.. juZ rEaChEd hM nT a lOng wHilE agO.. onLinE n sAw tiS wEbbiE dAt a fRen sEnt mE.. fElt tt it wAs rEali mEaNingfUl.. hMm.. fRee dEn chEck tiS oUt bAhs...

http://aero.ycis.edu.hk/~luijt/friends/a.htm
http://aero.ycis.edu.hk/~luijt/friends/ab.htm
http://aero.ycis.edu.hk/~luijt/friends/abc.htm
http://aero.ycis.edu.hk/~luijt/friends/abcd.htm
http://aero.ycis.edu.hk/~luijt/friends/abcde.htm

yeSh

2004-08-27T20:55:00.000-07:00

Wahs man.. has really been a long time since i blog lors... haha.. oh yahs.. was reali v busi.. wif sch stuffs.. n human relations stuffs.. wahahhas.. got to online lor... but alwaes nt more den half an hr.. .. cos 2pid pc kip hanging.. jia lat sia.. haha.. online 2dae... saw my blog.. wahss... a lot of ppl tag lehs... v happi.. yuan lai soooo mani ppl kuan xin wo de sia... lols...

hmm.. wad to do.. exams coming... 65 more days ler.. dun play play ler sia.. cant afford to.. onlli can spend time mugging... will kip on jia you de lor...

yahs... a lot of emotional stuffs tiss wk man.. frens.. n stuffs.. but i 'm glad lor... dat finaly tinks r gettin better n better ler wors.. lols.. all tok tok tok.. hope everitink will b ok man... hahha

hmm... aniwae.. for those hu r losing faith. in ur frens.. in ur self.. in work n stuffs.. wadever... i juz wana sae dat... kip on striving... despite wad has happen.. cos once u carry on... once u continue to walk.. its a step nearer to joy... love... n other positive side of life... trust mi... dun ever stop... once u stop... its haard 2 carry on animore... jia you ppl... let's kip on running tis path of life together.. gud lucks...

kE liAns..

2004-08-19T22:00:00.000-07:00

hMm.. 2dAe v gUais nEhs... hAhahs.. oncE i fiNiSh leSsons.. dEn jit tAo gO hM lErS woRs.. loL.. guAis riT.. coS mRs chAn suDdenly sAe 2mL MUST haNd iN fnN.. hAha.. oF coS gO hM dO lAhs.. dEn 2+ dO aLl dA wAy tO 4+ woRs.. tOk 2 siEw lIn oN tHE foNw.. 3 8 a Bit... hAhAha... dEn cOntinue alL dA wAy til 7+.. finAly finISh! hahAHas.. dAmn coOl...

thE 2piD pAin iN m mOuth.. tiNk itS uLcEr.. bUt kArinE n mAmA sAe itS dA gRoWth oF wiSdoM toOth.. dUno wAdevEr dE hEll iS dAt siAs... hAIyA.. oNli noE v V v V pAin loRs. hAis... boTh siDes.. leFt n RighT sUmoRe.. v kE liAns lEhs.. eAt oSo tAke cEntUrieS.. dRiNk oSo tAke cEntuRieS.. hoPE iT wUn affEct hoW i rEad bAhs.. coS 2ml iS my oRal woRs.. loLs..

hMm.. dEn.. i wAtCh sIngApoRe idOl.. wAhs mAn.. dAmn coOl loRs.. v v V eMoiTioNAl siA thoSe pPl.. hAIs.. juZ bCos iF fAME n stUFfs.. dEy rEali piA n cHioNg... sUm v bAstArd lORs... mAchIum bAckstAb fRens.. jiA lAt... suM sAng wEll... yEt.. ... hAis.. wAd's thE woRld.. loLs.. kE liAn dEm...

-=stUdy dAe=-

2004-08-18T21:00:00.000-07:00

wAhAhAs... sAmE olD tiNk lAhs... stUdy loRs.. wAd elSe cAn i do!...
pEngS...
wAhAhs... ydAe nitE goRt nitE clS woRs... ok ok loRs... noT qUitE aLot of pPl woRs.. v siAns..
2dAe in clS.. wAhs... alMoSt 5 pEriOds fREe... a loT tEachErs nV cUmz lErs.. hAis.. mAyb thoSe tEacherS evEn moRe stReSs dEn uS woRs.. 1 by 1 siCk lErs nEhs..
hMm.. aftEr sCh 2dAE wEnt 2 dA libRaRy n stUdy loRs... wiF wEicOng n ShiyiN .. dAmn jiA lAt loRs.. kEnA sKanK aLl tHE wAy.. hAHAs...
wEnt hOmE n wAtcHed sUsiLo plAys bAdmiNtOn.. wAhs.. hE loSe tilL dRoP pAntS loRs.. cAnot mAkE iT siAs.. dUno wAd's wiF hiM.. mAchiUm nV coNcEntRatE lEr... noE hE cAn dO bEtA dEn dAt dE... hAIs.. bUt... nO woRriEs lAhs.. hOpe hE'll fEel bEta nW oRedi.. wHAhAhas..

i fOund oUt sOmEthIng... *i HAvE foRgOttEn hIm lEr* hAhahAs.. alRits.. i eXpErimEmtEd.. gOIn 2 hiS blOg.. blAh blAH blAH... hAf no fEelinGs! wEll doNE... m v pRouD oF mySelf woRs.. pRovE dAt timE heAls wOunds iNdEed.. weLl.. hAPpiEr n hAppiEr... gUd siA.. *clAp *clAp *clAp woO hoO!!! muZ cElEbRatE woRs.. loLs... sO thoSe wANA coNgRatS mi hoRs... fEel fRee tReAT mi POKEY STRAWBERRY okiEs.. hAHAhaHAHahAhahs...
foR thoSe stiLL iN thE pRoCeSs of bEing huRt oR wADEvEr iN wAdevEr wAys... timE rEali hEalS.. fRown nO moRe..WAIT.. foR tHe dAy tO coMe... tRuSt iN uRsElf n ablE tO dO iT dE.. ^jiAyoU woRs^

piSsEd

2004-08-16T22:29:00.000-07:00

wAhs.. mAn.. nW dAmn pISSED aRs...

ydAE niTe v jiA lAts loRs..

i wAs damn confussed whether to retake my chi or nort lor... den ask my mama.. den she scolded mi lor.. its lyk.. hello! i onli askin a qns lor.. she was v guo fen lor.. sae wad.. ask mi dun waste her $$$ n stuffs.. sae everitime nt serious.. blah blah blah.. sae wad... compare mi n mi sis lah.. she is cleverer den mi.. another words..i am stupidier lah.. wadever lor.. somemore still sae... ask mi dun go jc... go ler, oso will nt pass de.. jit tao go poly suan ler.. all tis lor..wahs.. i suerly nt hurt lo... v hapi sia.. yahs... fine lor.. wan c mi study.. study 4 dem to c lor... finelor.. study till die.. best wad... kaos.. damn angry..

cries to slp...

2dae ... carry on lor.. she cum hm.. continues to nag.. win ler.. i gt nth 2 sae... wad to sae sia.. damn angry wif dem.. i hardworkin.. no 1 c... no 1 praise... cum back hm.. kena frm parents .. c face frm family.. damn sux lor..

hais...
1 by 1...

wad the hell man... watch it lor.. i will score better den her de lor... trust mi...

will dey stop pressurizinx mi.. will dey gif mi more encourage me mahs.. ppl mother... i oso gt.. ppl gt sister.. i oso gt.. but... yahs.. suan ler...

i pray for strength...

i pray for a miracle...

bleSSed bleSsed dAe

2004-08-15T22:18:00.000-07:00

hAhAs.. 2 dAes nV blOg woRs.. coS nV onlinE wAd.. loLs.. guAis nEhs.. loLs..

weLl... ydAe... goRt sCh mOck eXam.. dAMn siAns siAs... loL.. nO chOicE.. hAf 2 gO.. EVERY sAt.. hMm.. dEn.. gO bAo lIng's hSe sTuDy.. wAh mAn.. dAmn pAiSeh.. shE aSk mi mAths qNs i duNo loRs.. hAiyAs.. mAthS lOuSy lEh.. wAd tO dO.. dEn wE stUdy stUdy stuDy.. dEn gO sWim.. AHhA.. gUd plAnning bY hEr woRs...hAHAs.. bUt v fUn.. thOu tiRed... bUt moRe reLAxeD lErs loRs.. reAchEd hM.. dEn mAnAgEd 2 cAtCh oLyMpiC dE opEnIng.. wAh .. itS dAmn cOol ok.. dA fIRewOrks.. woO hOO!!! sHoiK siA.. hOPE SingApoRe wiLl dO weLl woRs..

welL.. 2dAe.. noRt bAD toO.. coS itS SUNDAY.. aftEr sErviCE dEn sTAyeD bACk 2 stUdy.. dEn wE rEviSe Eng oRal.. coS cOmin soOn loRs.. oN fRi.. hAis.. sCarEd wOrs.. hMm.. dEn afTEr dAt.. gO toWn wIF siEw lIn n wEi cOng.. kEna sKank a Lot of timeS loRs... i almoSt kNoCk dA glAsS doOR.. hAHa.. dEn kEna sKank bY dA icE cReaM mAn... kEna cALled Ah mA n stUffS.. mAke a nUisAncE oF ouRselves in dA mRT.. dAMn sKAnKed.. bUt oSo fUn woRs.. hope ALL oF uS eNjOyed dA dAy...

8o moRe dAyS 2 'o' lEvEl lErs..

2004-08-13T22:03:00.000-07:00

hAis.. days closer 2 o level leh... but still haben decide to retake or nort... jia lat lor.. haiyo.. c how lah... hmm.. quite fun 2dae.. ahha.. at sch... play floorball.. v fun nehs... haha.. den i accidentalli slipped on 1 ball.. den the whole tink dentted lor... damn paisehs sia.. ahha.. hmm.. after dat.. as in.. after sch.. pia hm.. den pia 2 admiralty meet weicong.. ahha.. siao lor.. i late ler.. den jit tao pia.. even 4got 2 bring moi bible out... haiyos... hmm.. den we go meet siewlin at khatib 2 study.. wahhahaa... oso nv study.. onli eat n tok nia.. cos after dat i go bible study wad.. ahhaa... v fun wor... we al tok lyk nobodies business.. ahha..

yea... went 4 disclepleship.. initially damn tired.. but after praying, my tiredness all gone.. haha.. thank God.. hmm... bout God as light.. ahha.. i prefer Light as Warmth.. filled with love.. n i nid Love most nw.. onli from God... hahaha.. dun wan ani 1's elses love... His love is enuf.. other ppl love mi will onli bring mi more prob onli.. haha.. wadever lah... c wad God's plans are lor.. wahhaha..

hais.. initialli going for a magic show wif the rest of dem together de.. but mama nag at mi.. nono.. is scold... nono.. is scream.. as in reali scream lor... hmm.. sae wad o level near.. still slack.. all tis n tt... kinda angri lor.. wen i studyin.. she nv c... hais.. dunno lah.. den ask mi do alot of hsework.. pls lor... i gt a lot of pairs of hands meh.. siao de lor.. hmm.. den whil sweepin da floor.. i made a lot of noise.. ahha.. use the broom n knock tinks.. throw tandrum lidat... haha.. a bit bad .. but.. angry wad.. ahha.. den 2dae.. more angri wor.. i nv go out.. reach hm early b guai kia leh.. den she cum back scold mi again.. *pengs.. sae she haven scold mi enuf.. wahss man... canot make it.. jia lat sia.. den i heck care.. carry eating my pokey!! hahaa... okok... v tired lers... nites...

Matthew 5:14 You are the salt of the world. A city on a hill cannot be hidden.

Chi rEsulTs... God's Plan? Thank God...

2004-08-12T13:30:00.000-07:00

alRits.. ydAe dInt blOg woRs.... hAha.. coS toO tiRed... goRt niTe clS tiLL 9 lEhs... liEws... v sIans.. noRt mUch pPl gO loRx... hmmM.. nVm lAhs.. at leAst goRT stUdy.. lAst 15 miNs dEn sLack All thE wAy.. mi n jAsOn aftEr dAt dEn gO n jOin sHiyiN evElyN chYe yAn kRin n adRian gossIp... hAHas... coOL lEhs.. loLs.... hMm.. aftEr dAt.. cHat wiF aloTsA pPl onLinE woRs.. hEhEs... v gUd... dEn gO fInd thE sOng Angels Brought Me Here by Gay Sebastian.. hAHas.. sEarCh uNtil mI wANnA *diE.. dAt wEi Cong lAhs... HAhas... hE wAn wAd.. dEN i b aNgEl a wHilE loRs.. hAHas... finAlii Kah Seng sEnt mi woRs.. loLs.. thANks aR bOi.. alRits.. aftEr dAt.. mi n wEicOng tHiNking of HAppI nICk!! hHaHAs.. coS wE dUn wAn sAD dE !!! dEn iN the eNd.. came up wif tiS... hAHAHs.. coOl NehS... dEn hE likE it soO muCH.. hAHa.. mAchiUm 1st timE cr8 niCk lidATs.. cAnoot mAKe it siAs.. HAhas.. hMm.. buDden hU cAres.. hE owEs mi PoKey StrAwbErri nW... mUahAHahas....

wAhs.. guEss wAd pPl? Chi O LevEl Results Release 2 dAe... HAhas.. goRt B3... oRal diStiNctiOn.. wEll.. dUno lEhs.. dUno wHethEr sHld rEtAkE boHs.. if rEtAkE, tAkes uP timE.. tAkes uP mOnEy... iF noRt, dEn mAyb wiLl miSsed A chAncE tO dO bEta.. hMm.. c hoW bAHs.. nT v hAPi wiF my rEsuLts aNiwae.. coS expEctEd aN A2 iNstEad dE.. hAiyo.. duNo lEhs... iN a dIlEmMA.. wiLl pRay bOut it.. c hoW bAhs... hAHa.. b4 dAt.. alL oF uS wAs lYk cAnot mAke it loRs.. wE weRe alL sO kAn cHiOng loR... hAha.. v coOl loR.. tEacher tOk wE nV liSten... hAHa.. PhilEo evEn wEnt 2 dA tOilEt a Lot of times lors.. dOIn pHy mOCk teSt.. i'm lyK.. pRayIN loRs.. hAha... kE liAn.. tAke oNli 1 sUb dE rEsult lidAT liAos.. woNdEr wAd wilL hAPpEn if tAke o lEvEl dE reSult... *whOo* dUn wANa tiNk of iT... goOsebUmpS siAs... *oUcHs*

hOpe dA rEst oF my fRenS wiLL b hApi wiF thEir reSults bAhs... jIA yOu woRs.. 2 dA reSt of u.. hAha...

anIwae.. nW iS fnN pEriOd loR... suPpoSedly tO b dOIn fnN dE.. bUt alL plAyiNs cOmp loRs... hAha.. dAMn jiA lAt siAs... all tOkiNg.. plAyin.. mUsiC-in, bLoginG.. hAhas.. siANs aR.. duNo wAd tO dO latEr.. gO hoME? oR gO oUt stUdy.. c mOi moOd hoW bAHs.. wAHahahas...

noRmAl

2004-08-10T21:36:00.000-07:00

alRit.. nTh mUch 2dAe... wOkE uP.. clEar mOi sTuffS... hAhAx.... oNliNE.. stUdy.. oNlinE... stUdy... hAhax...wEnt 2 stUdy wiF sHy.. kRin... bIg cHiCken.. jUn Hong n pHilEo.. gUai bAhs? hAHax... 2ml teSt! aRghs... gOrts nitE clS..!!! wiLL b v tirEd i gueSs.. bleSSed dAe pEepS!

nAtiOnAl dAE

2004-08-09T21:58:00.000-07:00

hAhax.. tiS iS thE 4th timE uPdAting my bLog.. coS juZ nW pC kiP hAngEd! hAix.. hAHax

ydAe nV bLog woRx... foRgEt lEr.. lEt mi rEcAlll uHx..

alRitx... ydAe sErviCe iN chuRch v fUn siAx.. alL v hIgH n hAppi .. hEhEx... sIng sOngS n dAncE alL dA wAy lEhx.. hEhEx... aftEr tUtIOn.. dEn wEnt2 cInElEisuRe n mAkAn.. dEn wEnt 2 eSplAnAdE tO wAtcH fiReworkS... thOsE fiReworkS dAMn nicE siAx.. hAhA.. thOu oNli 5 miNs.. bUt rEali v V V v niCe aRx... *cLAp*clAp* mAn.. hAhAx.. wE alL tOgEthEr...hAhAx.. goRt mE, sHiyiN, evE, jAdE, jOycE, YufAn, dAjiN, bEnji, lIsHeNg, JunhOng n kOk sIang woRx.. hAhax.. v fUn.. hAHa..bUt aftEr dAt.. aLl lYk kIndA sAd.. coS sUmtiNk hAPpEnS lAhz... dEn mAchIum alL bO moOd.. thInk oNli jAde v hApi.. coS shE cAn c hEr dArlIng wAd.. hAhax... hOpe bY noW alL okAy lErx woRx...

ydAe pAsS bY s'pOre rivEr... eSplAnAde... CitY hAll.. sO mAni mEmoRieS flEw bAck.. hAIx... wEn iS rEali dAt tiME dAt i cAn rEAli... 'dElEtE' hiM oUttA mY hEad... sUmtimeS i wOndEr... iF iT wOuld b bEta iF sUm kInd oF aCcidEnts hAppenS 2 mi.. dEN i goRt lOng tErm mEmoRy.. i wUn rEmEmbEr all dE tiNks tt hAPpEnS 2 mi lEr... evEn if it meAns dat... i wUn remEmbEr evEri singlE thiNg.. i dUn cAre... hAix...

sHy toLd mi.. shE noE mi sOo lOng.. oSo nV c mi sO sEriouS b4... hAHax.. iS tt suPpoSe 2 b a coMpliMent? shLd i b pRouD oR happi bOut iT? nAhx..i'm noRt... i rAthEr b thE mi.. tt bReak pAtCh bReak pAtCh.. no fEElingS... hAix..nW liDat.. aS if v gUd.. inthE End..kEna hURt dE..iS mI mYsElf n I woRx... dAmn xIng kU...

whEw... iT haS bEen v long sIncE sLEpT tiLl 12pM lEr.. hAhax... v sHioOk woRx... dEn all dA whIlE stuDy.. oNli aftErnoOn oNliNE awHilE oNli.. dEn wAtch nAtiOnaL dAy pArAde woRx.. whAox.. sO niCe.. the pArAdE.. pErfoRmAncEs n sTuffS.. hAhax... Mr Goh's lAst nAtionAl dAy woRx.. hAhax.. aS iN.. hE gonNa sTEps doWn soOn lEr wAd... sO sAd..! loLs.. inthE aftErnOOn oSo rEplIed aN eMAil tO gUAng Lin.. hAha.. feElS soO muCh lYk aN angEl.. lOl... cAn cOunsEl pPl sO weLl.. y cAnt i cOunsEl mySelF... jiA lAtx...

mY dAEs wiLl b bEtax... i pRomiSe!

e5 20o1 n 20o2...sEntOsA!

2004-08-07T22:00:00.000-07:00

aLritX.. Let mi recall wad hapen ydae.. kekex.. hmm...

sch national dae celebration.. initially v fun de.. cos gt games..btwn teachers n students.. all damn high lor... cos v v v exciting wad.. den hor.. the stupid concert.. haiyo..canot it make sia... lousy!.. haha.. reali lors.. is the boring-est... haha... no excitement at all... damnjia lat.. not lyk last yr... so gud... so high.. so hapi.. so much involvement.. liewx...

den went 2 iwan hse 4 disclepleship.. haha.. v fun.. tok abt the Book of Job in the Bible.. n oso abt teaching ... learn alot of tinks.. yea!

2dae went to sentosa leh! hehex.. cos gt a gathering lidatx... e5...2001 n 2002 lorx... was v fun.. reali... i tink everi single 1 of us enjoy.. if nort.. the most of us bahx.. hehex... got..
Me.ShiYin.ChaLin.Jerlynn.FengLing.Alisa.Farina.Cherie.
YeLian.JiaLu.ShuHua.Jacinta. Xavier.Adrian.YuFan
hahAx..at 1st they go v early leh... ard 8+ hahha.. c hols.. so i wanna slp longer.. go n meet them afterwards wif Xavier lor.. hehex... v cool worx... we all suntan... n play alot of ball games.. even blindfold games.. was reali a v gr8 n exciting day spent wif all moi frens worx...

*nw whole body red ler*

hahaha.. well.. on the way hm dat time.. liewx.. so shag... so listen 2 music.. n slping.. meanwhile... quite a bit of mood swing wor.. remembered gt 1 time go wif company de frens.. v fun wor... den a lot of memories juzz flew back.. was tinking bout a lot a lot of tinks lor.. haix. oso duno y.. oso duno how.. hmm... juz hope dat tinks will b outta my head soon.. hmm.. dun wanna soiled dat gud dae wor..

on the bus damn cold ler.. so wanted 2 walk on instead.. haha.. wif xavier lor.. haha.. den he v jia lat.. we snatchin fone all the way.. i wana take his fone msg sum1.. den he dun1.. lolx..

well... hope dat 2ml will b a beta day.. n i bet it will b lor... cos 2ml is a SUNDAY.. love ya ppl lots... muacks..

88 moRe dAyS... 'o' lEvEl... hAix...

2004-08-05T18:37:00.000-07:00

hMphZ... wEnt 2 sCh eArly in dA moRning.. reAliSe itS onlI 88 dAys.. fReAkEd oUt.. wiLl stUdy hArd.. wAnA cR8 a miRaclE...

ydAe diNt blOg.. nv onlinE. gUaix nEhx.. stUdy wiF jErlYnN in Sch tiLL v lAtE iN sChx..ard 6+ woRx.. gUAi lEhx.. loL..

2dAe oKiE loR... gOrT my coUrSwoRk B.. fNn eXam.. hOpe cAn dO wEll bAhx...

oSo, wEnt fErx aDaM khOo'S bOostEr sEsSion.. RamEsh v coOl siA.. gIF a Lot oF jOkE.. v fUnny. reViSe thoSe iMpt tEchniCs 2 stUdy wiF uS.. hmM.. cAn dE lAH.. wiLl jiA yoU lORx..

oSo hoRx.. dAt sTuPid gG n biG chIckEn oWe mi Pokey Strawberry lehX! liEwx.. sO bAd dE... hAHAHx... dEy bEtax b moRe gUAi woRx.. hAhAx...

4 moRE dAys tO NatiOnal dAe... hAhAx.. 2ml cElEbRatiOn.. skUl eNds eArly.. sAt... sUn.. mOn.. tueS nO sKuL..!!! wOO hoO~~~ sHoiOk.. hAHax...

HaPpy NatiOnaL Day woRx...

Psalms 56:3:Whenever i am afriad, i will trust in you.

study hArd!

2004-08-03T16:16:00.000-07:00

riTx riTx... wAs v pRouD oF mYSeLf aT 11aM tiS mOrNinGx.. hEhEx.. i finAly finiSheD rEaDinGx lErx.. hEhEx.. reAli iS bReAk rEcoRd loRx.. okAy.. lAdieS n gEntlemEnt.. i'm sEriouS.. tiS iS seRiOuSly a v gUd bOok loRx.. nOt bOut rEliGiOn oR wAdevEr... jUZ gO n boRroW n rEad.. No regRetS dE.. rEali ReaLi V v V v V gUd dE boOk nEhx..

weLl.. weLl.. 2dAe gOrt sOciAl stUdieS teSt.. hMm.. jiA lAt... 2nd qNs hoRx.. hAiyOx... cAnoT mAkE iT lORx.. yuP.. bUt 1st qNs noRt bAd... hOpe cAn pAss aNiwAe loRx... qUitE a bAd dAe 2dAe.. hMm.. dUno weLl.. *shE* soRtA lyK iGnoReS mI loRx.. oSo dUnNo wAd i dO wRonG loRx.. hOpe cAn rEsume lyK laSt timE loRx.. hMm.. 2dAe fnN.. gO pC lAb.. dEN gO onlinE.. dUno y.. gO hiS bLog agAin.. hmM.. wAs a Long timE sincE viSit hiS blOg.. hMm.. i tHoUght i hAf rEali foRgOttEN bOut evEritiNkx.. bUt... i wAs wRong loRx.. hmM.. cAnt hElp fEelIng v sAd.. suDdEnly mOod sWinG lErx loRx.. hAiZ.. y lidAT nEhx.. hoW cAni foRgEt hiM.. aS in... reAli foRgEt hiM... hAix..

ydAe wHIlE rEplYin gUang liNg's mAil.. i wAs tHiNkinG a loT.. hMm... hE sAe i sHldnt hAf thE nEgAtivE oPiNioN on 'LOVE' alTho iT fAilEd oncE... hE's riGht.. bUt i cAnt hElp iT loRx.. i tiNk.. perhAps... i wUn bEliEve iN LOVE animoRe... itS fAkE dE loRx.. itS onli God's LOVE whOm i ONLY cAn truSt.. wHom LOVEs i WILL ONLY eXpEriEncE.. n oSo.. fRen loVeS bAh.. otHEr dEn dAt.. plS gO awAy... dUn gEt cloSe 2 mE leRx.. onCe biTTEn tWicE sHy.. indEed hUhx..

nO mAttEr wAd it iS.. nW.. goNna gEt tiS typO sTuffS oUttA mY hEad...nW rEali bUsi sTudYin lOR... hAhA..gUd 2 hAf mySelf ocCupied wiF othEr tiNks.. weLL... BGR stuFfS juZ sUcKS.. it tuRns my lifE uPsiDe doWn mAn... wAd aM i tO dEsErvE alL tiS? jiA lAt loRx.. WHATEVER MAN! o lEvEl iS fAr moRe iMpt... mY fAmiLy n fRenS n fAr moRe iMpt... mY God.. my Church iS fAr moRe imPt... So.. gEt thE hEll oUt oF mY lifE mAn... wAhAHAhax....

gOin 4 mY niTE clS lErx.. goTtA eNd lAtE.. sO wUn oNliNE lErx... tAkE cAre pEepS..

Matthew 16:23 "Get behind Me, Satan! You are an offense to Me, for you are not mindful of the things of God, but the things of men."

RejOicE in thE dAy!

2004-08-02T19:05:00.000-07:00

wAhAhx.. ydAe nV blOg woRx.. thOu gOrt onLinE.. coS v tiRed nEhx.. ydAe sUndAy.. wEnt cHurCh... of coS v fUn lAhx.. hAhAx.. ZhiwEi shArEd woRx.. oN tRansfoRmIng bY tRoubleS.. hAvE tAuGht mI noRt 2 b aFrAid oF tRoubleS woRx.. coS itS tRoubleS n obStAbleS dAt cAn mOulD mY chArActEr n -blAhx-

cIndY lEnt mi a bOok... wAhx.. tiS bOok dAMn gOod woRx... hAha.. by Mich Albom... a bEri gUd aUthoR... kIP rEadIng iT woRx.. noN-stOp.. bReak rEcoRd siAx.. nV rEad a bOoK sO fAst b4 leHx.. hAhax.. onlI 2 dAes, rEad aLmoSt 75% lErx.. hAhAx... guAix woRx.. hEhEx...

2dAe aRx.. noRt bAh woRx.. aftEr sCh jiT tAo piA hM stUdy lErx... mAths hMwk alOt wAd... mRs lOh siAo dE loRx.. giF sOooOoooO mAni hMwk.. hAIyAx... o lEvEl lErx.. oSo muZ guAi loRx.. dEn dO dO dO... juZ finiSHed.. *pEngS* nW sEeiNg lotSa stArs nEhx.. wAhAhAx.. hMm... goTtA go lErx.. mAkAn mAkAn... dEn sTudY agAin... sOciAl stUdieS teSt 2ml.. !!! hEhEx...
-bleSSed eVeNinG-

Hebrews 10:36 Trust in the Lord and keep on doing what is right.

~sWimMinG~

2004-07-31T22:48:00.000-07:00

wElL.. wEnt tO sCh eArly coS wAs bEing niCe 2 mS tAn..bRoUght 10 bUttOnS tO hEr.. hAhax.. suppoSedly niD 2 rEach aT 8.. budDen reAch at 7...sO.. sO gUd.. hAhax.. wElL.. shE iS suPoSe 2 tRaet uS bReAkfAst dE nEhx.. bUt shE buSi.. lEt hEr oFf bAhx.. hEhEx.. dEn goRt moCk eNg exAm.. pApEr 1.. dAmn jiA laT.. sitUatioNaL wRitinG sOoOo difficUlt.. dEn coMpO.. i wRitE aBt drEamS... wAs a sEntimEntAl 1.. hAha.. aBt thE drEamS of a lEukEmiA pAtiEnt. 10 yR olD niA.. hAHa.. hoPE i cAn dO wElL loRx!

aftEr dAt.. wAlk alL dA wAy 2 bAolInG's hSe.. tOk aLot nEhx.. hAhax.. sO loNg nV c hEr lErx.. gT aLot of tinkS 2 sAe woRx.. dEn.. wEnt sWimmIng lAtEr.. hAha.. 2 hRs lidAt loRx.. v sHiOk nEh.. dEn wE mAdE aN agReEmEnt 2 eXcErciSe rEguLarLy loRx.. hAhax.. coS wE wAna gEt rid oF FATS! hAhAx.. yeS..! wE muZ jiA yOu woRx.. loL...

wEnt hM n onlinE alL dA wAy.. coS goRt sUm woRk 2 dO.. FNN LoRx.. muZ piA lEr.. hAi.. 89 moRe dAyS 2 o lEvEl.. "cAn i mAkE iT?" jiA yOu jiA yOu.. hAhAx.. bRo n siS dAt r rEadinG tiS, plS kiP mi iN prAyEr...

Psalms 46:1 God is our refuge and strength, always ready to help in times of trouble.

toMorO'S a wEekeNd !!! finALLy...

2004-07-30T21:51:00.000-07:00

wAs kiNdA glAd.. coS itS dA laSt dAe of sCh dAe.. aCtuAli noRt rEali lAhx... 2ml stiLl hAf 2 gO bAck sCh fErx moCk exAm... nVm lAhx.. liE 2 mySelf awhilE.. hAHAx...
alRitx.. stArt thE moRninG wiF GRADUATION NITE BRIEFING! dAmn coOl lEh.. thEme iS... doWntoWn coOlsVillE mE n mY frenS wErE v eXcitEd woRx.. hEhex.. aftEr dAt..gT p.E.. wAhAhx..fUn siAx.. plAyeD rUlby... hEhEx.. mS thiA wAS lYk... "thE dinOsAuR egG!" aCt cUte oNli.. loL.. budDEn wAs v fUn...i bEt aLl oF uS eNjoY ouRsElveS woRx...

sHaG thOu.. slEpt in clS 4 sUm pErioDs .. hAHax... ms lOh sudDenly sAe i muZ gO 4 rEmEdiAl..liEw.. wAs kindA angRy coS infoRm uS lAst miN... jiA lAt lEh.. almoSt cAnt mAkE it 4 diSclEplEshiP.. buT thAnk God.. mAke it iN timE.. whEw...

wEnt 4 diSclEplEshiP woRx.. wiF *kriS *iwAn *jUn pIng... hAhAx.. tOk aBt thE bibLe... leArn dAt.. God gifS tAlEntS, aCcorDing oN oWn's aBilItY...iF u R fAithfUl, u wiLl gEt moRe... iF u aRe noT, evEn littlE tAlEnts wiLL b tAkEn aWae... n God wUn givE aNymoRe..

waS a bleSseD dAy indEed... spEnt wiF frEnS... spEnt timE prAyinG 4 eAch othEr...

Matthew 25:29 To those who use well what they are given, even more will be given, and they will have an abundance. But from those who are unfaithful, even what little they have will be taken away.

---cAkeS---cUp.cAkeS---aNd.moRe.cAkeS---

2004-07-29T20:33:00.000-07:00

wAhx... 2dAe fNn 4 peRiodS mAkiNg cAkE nEhx.. hEhEx... yEa~ v fUn woRx.. coS itS o lEvEl thIngY wAd.. eXpEriMent lidAtx loRx.. alL v kAn cHioNg oSo... hAHax.. wAs qUitE woRriEd iNitiAly.. coS minE doeSnt apPearS 2 b siMiliAr fRm myy fRenS.. bUt thAnk God! evEritiNk tuRnS oUt finE.. hEhEx..

coS thE wholE thIngy.. iS a rEpEatEd pRoceSs.. eXpErimEnt wAd.. diD thE sAmE olD tInK ovEr 4 timeS... onLi dAt thE aMt of fAts iS diFf.. -blAh- mY gAng (*kArinE*cHyEyAn*sHiyiN*mE*) wE wAs lYk mAkiNg a lOt oF noISe.. aS iN coMplAiniNg lORx... "LieWx..sO tired lEhx!" "wAhz mAn... suRelY nT siAnX..." "wAh kAox...wAshIng agAin..." "hAiyOx... hAndS v 'sUan' lEh" n moRe lAhz... aT dAt pOint.. suddEnly sUmtiNkx cAme aCroSs mE... ... ...

i thoUghT thAt.. lIfe iS lYk a cyCle toO.. hMm.. yeS... iF evEridAe.. itS onlI a rEpEatEdLy pRoceSs.. thEn it wiLL b v siAnx loRx.. pPl wiLl kiP oN coMplAiniNg dE lOrx.. riTx.. nTh nEw.. sAme oLD tiNk.. hU wUn fInd iT boRingX? dAt'S y... wAs thInkiNg thAt.. if evEridAe wiLl b a Bit fUlfillIng... hoW wOndErfUl wLd iT bE... hoW muCh lesSeR pPl wiLl stoP sAyin dAt thEy R siAnx... yuPx..

dEn.. aftEr dAt.. on thE wAy hM.. wE wEre toKin bOUt fiSheS.. wiF thE 4 oF uS n EvElyN.. hAhax.. wE wAs lyk... 'uRs diEd oRedi?' hhAhAz... dEn kArinE's n sHy'S fiSh diE lErx.. loL.. bUy aLL nO fEelinGs lidAtx... loL...

alRitx... gottA gO stuDy lErx... (0_O)cheErS(O_0)

*Lamentations 3:22 The unfailing of the Lord never ends! By his mercies we have been kept from complete destruction.

^fiShiE^daE^

2004-07-28T21:06:00.000-07:00

wAhx mAn..i rEali caNot bEliEve it loR.. pC hAng aT dA mOmEnt mi wAnAx 'EntEr' hAiyOx... nW hAf 2 rEtyPe evEritiNk... *pEngs*

okIE.. b4 evEritinK, lEt mi rEvIew wAd hApEneD ydAe nitEx...

winStoN cAlleD mi wORx..so Long nV cALl..dEn suddEnly cAlleD.. tOk tilL hAlf..hE 'cuP' mY fonE.. juZ bCoS i sAe suMtinK wRong..wAhz mAn..i suReLy noRt angRy lEh... hE pRomiSe nT 2 dO dAt b4 dE loR.. altHo i noE hE jK.. bUt juZ cAnt hElp fEeliNg angRy aBt iT.. hAtE pPl hU dOeS dAt... wElL, dEn 2daE aftErnOon hE onlinE.. i 'sCreAmed' at hiM..hAhax.. hE waS sO aPolOgtiC... okiE! dEn i sO gUd n foRgivE him lErx loRx.. hAhAx.. wAs stiLl v aNgrY.. bUt c hiM sMall... dEn suAn lErx loRx... hopE hE bEtax dUn dO it agAiN loRx.. to whOevEr rEaadinG tiS: bEta dUn mAkE pRomiSes 2 mI, iF it wAsnt mEant 2 b a pRomiSe.. dUn 'fU yAn' mI.. hAte pPl Hu bReAks pRomiSes...

alRitx.. 2daE dUrin hiStoRy.. suddEnly gT a bAtCh oF fiSheS coMEs iN.. *yEa~* frEE fiSheS 4 uS.. coS dAt tiME wEnt 2 fiSh faRm wAd.. loL.. wE alL dAMn hiGh ovEr fiSheS.. a fEw sIcko's in mY clAsS wEnt bOnkErs ovEr dEm.. siAo dE loRx... fEw evEn tRy 2 hEat thE fiSh ovEr bUnsEn buRneR dUrin chEmiStRy pRacticAl 2dAe.. dAMn sIck riTx? bUey tAhAn thEm sUmtimeS.. *pEngS*

wElL.. evEritiNk wAs alRitx.. wEnt hM 2 rEviSe a littlE n finISh a BIt of fNn coUrSewoRk thIng! hMm... gOnnA gO bAck 2 rEviSioN lErx...

*bleSsEd niTEx*

~Judges 2:18b For the Lord took pity on his people, who were burdened by opression and suferring.

hOmE~

2004-07-27T18:44:00.000-07:00

wAhz.. 2dAe aftEr sCh jiT tAo piA hM lErx woRx.. coS nO rEmEdiAl! nO GOAL!!! yiPpeE~ bUt cUm tO tHiNk oF it, tiS iS mY lAst tueS spEnt aT hM sO early lErx.. untiLl 'o' lEvEls..hAiz.. coS fRm nExt wK onwArDs... evEri tueS gT nItEx clAsS nEh!!! hAIyA.. nVm lAh... feW moRe mthS 2 tAhAn loRx.. wEl..suPpoSeDly wAna gO hM n dO fNn dE.. bUt eNdEd uP onlinE all thE wAy.. v mAn nEh... uPdAting blOg stuFfs... wRitE teStimOnys foR pPl.. evEn gO n clEar mAilbOX dE tHinGy leHZ.. bO liAo hoRz... hAiz... bUt nVm.. wiL atOnE foR it aftEr dinnEr... wiLl stAy in mOi roOm alL thE wAy tO rEvisE!!! *bleSsed rEviSioN* alRitx.. 2dAe hiStoRy teSt noT bAd woRx.. *eXpEctEd dA anS* hAhAz.. hopE cAn dO weLl lORx... yEa~ juZ nW oSo lOok thRu sUm stuFfs... yeS... hMm.. dEn. mAnAgEd tO dElEtE sUm oF dEm fRm mY cOmpUtEr.. will dElEtE aWay ALL of iT.. onE bY onE.. stEp bY stEp.. sincE oRedi dEcidEd 2 foRgEt lErx... dEn i muZ b dEtErmiNeD tO clEar evEritiNkz rEgArdiNg hiM loRx!!! =p cAn dE lAhz... i'm a stRong guRl woRx... foR i hAvE soUght stRengTh iN HIM! Thank God!!!

*Psalm 23:4 Even when i walk through the dark valley of death, I will not be afraid, for you are close beside me. Your rod and your staff protect and comfort me.

tRuLy tRutHs

2004-07-27T15:59:00.000-07:00

++...Met u...Loved u...Hated u...Misses u...Forgets u...++

To All My Friends:
You are a BEATUIFUL Person... n dat I will always be here for you when and if you need me ... If I died tomorrow, you would be in my heart forever.
Even if I never talk to you again in my life, you are special to me and you have made a difference in my life, I look up to you, respect you, and truly cherish you.
I Love You... i really do...

ž|=mY hEavEn=|žž|=gOrgEoUs hEavEn=|ž

gElylAnG dAyx...

ALL DAY

aNothEr wEeK

SabBatH

FruiTs

oH..bElovEd mUmMmYy...

diStuRbed silEnce

i thank God...

violent agitation

1st Day Of School

dEfinitELy moRe dEn FUN!

sHy... 17 soOn leRx...

bEloveD sHy's bdaE coMing soOn arR!

freaKin oUt! it's the last wk of holidays

God is good, All the time

tiS iS fuN!

caMp leR camP leR

The Word and Drawing near to God

gone forever

coUgh n coUgh n coUgh n cOugh..

gueSs wAd.. it iS thE HOLIDAYS!!! yiPeE..

i aM bAckeD, bAckeD n iLL!

thiS iS thE dAy!!!

frEe! yEa

soOoOO lOng sincE.. ... ...

fEeDin thE 500o

soOo bluE

GreAt is thE mEasurE of ouR FATHER's LOVE!

noRmaL vS aBnoRmaL

it'S mY biRthdAY

biRthdAysSsSss...

smAshEd cAke on fAcE

wAd thE hElL

God's boxes

Out oF milK

*exAm*s

My Lawyer

i aAM sIck..

*mOndAy*

tUeSdAy

cIndErEllA

*pRo*

*yeSh*

kE liAns..

-=stUdy dAe=-

**piSsEd**

bleSSed bleSsed dAe

8o moRe dAyS 2 'o' lEvEl lErs..

Chi rEsulTs... God's Plan? Thank God...

*noRmAl*

nAtiOnAl dAE

e5 20o1 n 20o2...sEntOsA!

88 moRe dAyS... 'o' lEvEl... hAix...

study hArd!

RejOicE in thE dAy!

~sWimMinG~

toMorO'S a wEekeNd !!! finALLy...

---cAkeS---cUp.cAkeS---aNd.moRe.cAkeS---

^fiShiE^daE^

hOmE~

*tRuLy tRutHs*

exAms

mOndAy

pRo

yeSh

piSsEd

noRmAl

tRuLy tRutHs